Transfer

Chapter 34

Beatrix

He, cheated on me again? how.. when... why? what did I do? was it the accident? was it me? was it the baby? does he not love me? am I not good enough for him? why does this only happen to me? right when I was a bout to move Harry came in, his eyes met mine and I looked at my hands. Then as in on cue in came Lexie and said "this is him" my heart literally shattered as she said that, I felt the tears stingy my eyes as Harry, Lexie, and I sat in quiet, Harry was the first to speak when he said " bee I-" I cut him off by saying " why? you cheated on me with my own sister! what did I do to make you do this not once but twice? was it to get back at me for going with Niall because if it is I'm so, so, so sorry I love you but I have been with him since I was 3 I loved him more than life, I love you now though and I'm sorry if I made you hate me and for you too-" now it was Lexie who cut me off when she said " Beatrix I'm sorry, I had no clue-" " ENOUGH WITH THE I NO CRAP ITS NOT FUCKING OK, HARRY IM SORRY BUT I'VE HAD ENOUGH WITH YOUR CRAP I DONT THINK I CAN GET PASSED THIS" Harry looked at me with glossy eyes as he crooked " please, we've been through so much with your family and the kidnapping, and the whole I'm your sister crap, I love you so, so much and if you go I'll get bad again, I'll lose all my happiness that you build in me,if you leave me I'm dead in side, if you leave I'll just go and sleep with every girl I lay eyes on like I have before, please bee I love you baby I can't lose you again" I look at him with red puffy cheeks and said " you don't have anything else to lose" he said " I have something to lose.. you" I shook my head and said " no, Harry.. apparently I lost you" Harry looks at me with wide eyes and says " so where does this leave us?" " I'm done Harry, I can't do it anymore. Not until you can prove to me that I'm not a punching bag, and I'm your girlfriend, not just some bitch you picked up off of the street slept with then threw to the side like a piece of shit, I won't have it." Harry has been looking down and he was shaking, I couldn't tell if it was from anger or sadness, but when he looked up he was crying.

Harry

This is all happening to fast. I thought she would forgive me like she has in the past but now she's leaving me, I don't no what I'll do, I can't go back to selfless I'm not gonna transfer because of the slightest chance she may still want me I'm staying, I just don't no if I can live with out her being here with me. Falling asleep next me with her head on my chest and her arm draped around my waist as I caress her fragile petite body. She is my life, I can't lose her like I lost Emily, I.. I.. I can't lose bee she is the only thing that keeps me breathing, eating, living, and doing everything else. " what can I do to make this up to you? I'll do anything?!" she looks at me and says " stay the hell away from me, until I can think for a while I'm only 17 I don't no if we should get married this young maybe we should wait till we find the right person or if we ever get back together, then we can wait till where 20 like everyone else gets married." I shook my head rapidly and said " n-no I'm not g-gonna stand by and let you be with another person, I barely lived when you where with Niall" she scoffed and said "it didn't look like it when you where fucking that girl in your bed" anger boiled in my veins as she brought that up, but it's true it's my fault, this whole thing is my fault and now I can finally see that I messed up big time, I finally look into her piercing blue eyes as I said " I'll go baby, I love you and I'll respect your decisions, but just remember I'll always try to get you back, and just because we 'broke' up doesn't mean I stopped loving you and I wouldn't do anything for you or beat the shit out of someone for you, I love you so fucking much" and with that I left my heart shattered but I hope she will have a never ending battle with her self as she thinks about leaving me, she loves me to fucking much to leave me.... At least that's what I thought.