Regret

Chapter 1

My maid was screeching on the top of her lungs while she was watching this particular show entitled " Two of Us " .

My mom has gone to a project of her buiness in Chesire , England so I'll be stuck with her this whole month.

"Uhhhhh!!!!! , can you please stop screming , please ... " I told her as I was reading a novel Nancy Drew's : The Thirteenth Pearl . I peeked at her with this seriously expression .

She was like "What !!! ,It's just so romantic , look at them they're so sweet , I wonder when will my True Love come ... " She let out this sigh , and a hoping expression with these twinkling baby eyes , O Gosh .

" True Love ? , sheesh , why do people think love will come someday , O .. really , Love is so cliche , and it makes people stupid , C'mon , people when will you be awaken from these things ... "

" You know someday you'll understand , don't think of it that way , you're just 7 , you'll understand , and I'm pretty sure you'll be undergoing it someday ... " she looked at me and gave this nefarious grin .

" Nah , Cyrie I don't think so , and in what way am I supposed to look at it , same old love stories , Gosh !!! , why do people still make the same mistakes when love is just the same old game .."

She just shook her head in disappointment . "O MY GOSH , They're so sweet , AH!!!! "

I just rolled my eyes and said " Yah , Yah , I hate that part , when the girl suddenly trods on the boy's feet and they madly fall in love with each other . "

Look , LOVE , seriously , people for goodness sake what do you pretty much expect with this pointless topic , people just hurt themselves in this stupid agenda , and what do you get in being in love , you know what I prefer , to stop gagging around and study harder to make things better in life , love , it just make lives worse (as i read in books) , you see I hate love it's a stupid thing people fall for and live happily ever after , like happily ever after really exists .

Life is directed by all of us , it may not be controlled by our own will sometimes , but we choose our path , if we make the right choices , and live it to the fullest life would be so much easier.

Since I was small I hated it never pictured myself in that kind of situation .

I wasn't like other little girls who loved listening to their moms telling them FAIRY TALES , and wishing that I would be the lost princess and be saved by a charming prince .

My perspective there would be what if there was no prince and you'd be alone in the woods finding him when he ran off and made his own fun .

You'd be LOST FOREVER .

So you have to learn to stand up in your own feet find a way to find your happiness .

'Cause not all the time a princess is saved by the prince , and not all the time the prince is the Hero of every love story.

For me , it's time to change that ending .

"Cause I surmise everyone can be a HERO .

- November 16 , 2008