Love Kills

Deep

Ever had the feeling that you where falling? Falling in a bottomless pit..? It's never ends.. and you never know if you'll hit rock bottom or not. You're just... stuck. Well, that's how I feel... ever since I knew who John really was, I've been stuck. Do I love him? Or do I not? Its like picking the peddles off of a flower, billions and billions of flowers... you never know when to or if it ever will stop.

"Lexi~! Before we go do you want to come to the park with me?"

"What's at the park...?"

"Victims."
No.. John didn't say victims, but I knew him to well. And I just know it, whoever John was after is at the park.

"Just to get some fresh air, clear our minds?"
John practically skipped out his room, after what I did to it, I wonder how he's still so happy. I smiled as he walked back into my room, crawling in the bed with me, his arms wrapped around my waist. "Sure.. as long as you're there with me, it'll be great...!" I pushed back a few strans of hair out of my face, looking down at John, his cheek was pressed against my stomach. "Alex?"
"Yes babe?"
"I love you..."
"I love you mor-" my eyes widened as I was cut off by John smashing our lips together
Melting into the kiss, I couldn't help but feel a red string tying around each others hearts.

~time skip because I'm lazy~
(Probably will change the point of view to this... sorry)

The cold gentle breeze was flowing through Alex's long hair that rested at his shoulders. John's long thick curls bounced as he walked by Alexander's side through the green grass of the park. Their hands interlaced together, causing a light blush to scatter across Alex's face. John was wearing a white sweater that had the colors of the rainbow on the form of paint, melting down to the bottom.
Alex was in a simple navy blue shirt that John simply adored whenever Alex wore. John was practically dragging Alex further into the park, letting out a few laughs and giggles "where are you taking me?" Alex asked, followed by a giggle as he glanced around the park that had many different kinds of flowers sprinting from the ground and large trees around every corner Alex turned. "No where special... just.. I'm sure you'll love it!" Alex rolled his eyes, letting John drag him by the arm. He thought for a moment 'how cute, the murderer wants to be all cute and fluffy... ugh, I can never get enough of him..' Alex was snapped out of his thoughts when John stopped walking at a large tree. Alex was left in shock, staring up. "Woah..."

John giggled, gently placing a small Kiss on Alex's cheek before sitting down and leaning his back against the trees trunk. "Its comfortable here... and look around! Few people, peaceful relaxation, what more can you ask for?" Alex couldn't help but smile brightly, looking down at John. "You're such a dork..." A faint but noticeable blush scattered Johns face. He held out his arms to Alex "I wanna hug... pleeeaaasse..?"
"Of course ill hug you, Jack.."
John's blush depend from the nickname. It sounded so right when it came from Alex's mouth. Alex stepped closer to John, eventually just sitting on Johns lap. Alex leaned onto Johns chest, wrapping his arms around the others torso and shutting his eyes. "My dearest... you have no fucking idea how much I love you.."
John smiled warmly, running his hand through Alex's long hazel hair.
"My boy... you are the most precious thing that has ever happened to me.. and I promise, ill make sure to put your life before mine.. anytime..every time.." Alex looked up at john with sparkles in his eyes. He pecked Johns lips softly, cupping his cheek.

The sun started to set, and there was nothing but giggles spilling out of the two love birds as they watched the sky change colors. Maybe Alex was wrong for once.. John wasn't always a deadly, crazy muster.. no. He was a gentle, loving, caring and fragile boy that doesn't deserve to be put through his own fails and problems.

                                  But even deeper down, behind the mask John wore whenever he was with Alex. Those smiles would quickly turn to frowns. Those start eyes would darken to deep black holes. And oh... John was always filled with the memory of witnessing his own mother being killed. Yeah that was always fun for Johnny boy!

Alex didn't realise until finally taking his eyes off the sunset and glancing up at John. Who had tears flowing down his cheeks like rivers, and his giggles turned to quiet sobs. Johns grip on Alex got tighter each minute as his thoughts got deeper and more dramatic. "J-John...?"

Sorry for the short update,, and vent... I've been.. stressing so much but I think I'll manage. Ill try to keep up the updates! Maybe once a week or twice a mouth, it depends if I'm busy or not... or if I have writers block which is 90% of the Time. Now hope you enjoyed the Lams fluff that will slowly ruin your pure hearts as I add my angst! 💗