{ Thinking Always }

A Journeys Beginning - 1

My life has been lived for almost 15 years and in them few years, I've experienced happiness, sadness and many other emotions.

So I like to begin my story at the very beginning, birth. I was born into a happy family with an older brother, my parents weren't married yet but they eventually got married in 2006. That was 3 years after I was born and I wore a pretty purple dress that I'd had pick.

Fast forward, it's 2008. My first year of school and my younger brothers year of birth.

So that brings me to the topic of school. I have always been above average when it comes to school, I had quite enjoyed having general knowledge and knowing things. Despite doing well at school, school wasn't an awfully happy place me, still isn't. I am a very friendly, caring person but I'm also quite sensitive. So from a very young age I got picked on, that wasn't the best and it really lowered my self esteem.

Fast forward to 2012, that was the year my parents divorced. This is where my journey began truly. To explain it briefly, I didn't have any friends to talk to, I didn't want to stress my mum, and my brothers were either too young or emotionally cut off. I felt so alone. It was also that year I first saw a counsellor. I was so genuinely embarrassed when people asked why I left school early or arrived late so I always said the doctors, I now know that you shouldn't be ashamed for seeking help.

Now I bring you to, 2016 my first year of high school. I had no friends and was very socially awkward and anxious when it came to new people. It was my literal nightmare. The beginning was terrible, I made a few friends which came and went. I never really fit in. I stayed at one high school until this year when I transferred to a better school.

So this brings me to now. A girl who was just officially diagnosed with depression. My life is changing and I'm not sure in what way.