So originally I was going to write this book in life order. I decided not to because I need to talk about now, so originally this chapter was going to be about bullying but I'm going to talk about my recent diagnosis.
Last week, I was diagnosed with severe depression and was prescribed antidepressants. As a 14 year old this is a life changing experience.
Since then I haven't been at my best, despite taking antidepressants I feel so different which is odd considering the only real lifestyle change is taking a medication everyday. My changes were subtle, I only just noticed. I started to push people away, starting fights with close friends on purpose so I felt valid. The point is I'm different, I've always known that but this way feels bad, wrong. I know it isn't. Depression is an illness like any other.
My best friend, she and I got into a fight. It was dumb and petty on my behalf and we went days without talking. Tonight I realised after accidentally swiping left on instagram and saw all my direct messages hadn't had may talk in them for days or ignored messages on my behalf. It was at that moment I saw what I was doing. I was pushing people away during one of the hardest times of my life. I ended up messaging my guy best friend whom I hadn't spoken to for a few days. He replied and let me vent.
The lesson learnt is even if you feel crazy, someone cares for you and what happens to you.
Also I want to let you guys know if anyone wants to talk about anything message me, I'm up almost always and if I don't see it straight away I will reply within 24 hours. :)
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{ Thinking Always }
Non-FictionI am the weird author. Sarah. So this book will be about me, not in a self centred way but I thought my stories about mental health might be interesting or helpful.
