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Do you ever just get in one of those moods where you're just like OH MY GOD he doesn't like you get lost stop fantasizing about him? Coz same. My feelings towards him are so all over the place at the moment. It's like one day I'm absolutely buzzing, really feeling the vibes and just all around happy because of him. and he does make me happy, but that kinda also makes me sad because he makes me happy and i dont even talk to him so its like wtf you really get so happy off the odd glance in the corridor? GET A LIFE PAL. And then that gets me thinking like THIS IS WEIRD EVACUATE. Things have happened, and it really does brighten up my day but its now like my whole day literally revolves around him and it's a bit creepy. When i say 'things' have happened, i mean views of stories and likes on pictures and looks in the hallway and stupid insignificant shit like that. I know yeah, tiny weeny little things that i love so much. But they really are insignificant and when im trying to explain to people the situation and they'll say like are you speaking? Do you ever snapchat him? Have you spoken before? Does he like you? Does he even like know who you are? and then I'm like well no we're not speaking and we never have and we dont snapchat each other BUT he does know I exist. He does, know i exist obviously, but its just so weird to think that i literally think about him ALL the time and he just doesnt think about me at all. And then things happen that make me think like okay maybe he does think about me a bit but then i tell myself WHY would he lets be real look at yourself, and if he does think about you he'll soon stop when he starts to dig deeper and realize stuff that will 100% put him off.

I.

Just.

Want.

Someone.

For once. I just need something. I've literally never really been in a situation where someone likes me. let's put it this way; people speak on snapchat every day and start to like each other and tell their friends what get said if they like them. All i have to tell my friends is that I caught a glimpse of him leaving school before break. It's really that pathetic. And i do talk to them about him a lot, and i feel really bad on them because i know that the shit i tell them really has no relevance whatsoever to their lives and i must just absolutely bore the shit out of them because all i talk about now is him. Which is understandable if you were speaking to someone, or had some sort of relationship, no matter how faint. But not if you're going on about how he LOOKED at you when he walked past. Like, really Natasha? He LOOKED at you and you're not going to stop thinking about it/talking about it all day, its that ridiculous. 

Leave the poor boy alone, you're already creeping him out and you know it.