The Price of Love

Chapter:1 Decisions

"Mama please just come home"

I said as I tried tugging on her arm.

"Look go home I don't need you to baby me, I'm your mama which means I tell you what to do not the other way around".

"So your just gonna continue to throw your entire life away just for a high"? I said as the tears started to form in my eyes. She just stood there looking at me like what I was saying meant nothing to her. I started thinking that she was right maybe I should just go home. I began walking off but then I turned around.

"Look here mama,Angie whatever you want me to call you. I am not about to put up with this any longer, so if you want to stay here and and practically ruin your life go ahead".

I was really crying now, every tear that fell had been inside me for a long time and I am just done holding it all in. I told myself that I wouldn't cry anymore after my dad died when I was 14, and I just can't hold this in anymore. I'm letting all my emotions out now.

"If you stay here tonight the next time you try to come home it will be empty everything will be gone including me and your son". When I said that her eyes got big and she started laughing with all the other crack addicts.

" Child you ain't going no where. Who do you think you are, just because you able to take care of yourself don't make you grown and you ain't taking my baby no where either. She said while scratching her arm like something was crawling on her.

"Like I said, if you don't come home we will be gone by the end of this week. "So what's it gonna be, your kids or this shit". I said while wiping my face and folding my arms. My mama stood there and looked at me like she was hesitating about what to say. I was serious about all this stuff I had just said, so now it's all up to her.

"What's the move" I said yelling a little. She stood up straighter and gave me a sorry glance before she walked to the table,knelt down and began lighting the pipe. I can't believe my eyes and my tears just won't stop flowing.

I love my mama to death, I swear I do but I just can't keep struggling to get her into a rehab. I finally made it to my car which was around the corner. I sat there for a second thinking about what happened and then I realized that I have to make a new beginning somehow and this will be my start.

*1day later

When I got home I had helped jay get undressed and then we started eating our food from zaxby's. I didn't tell jay that we were moving and he haven't asked me about mama either.I figured that it just haven't crossed his mind yet but it will come up sooner or later.

I have most of our things packed up and I don't got to worry about my mama stuff because she been took that out the house. We're leaving in 2days and I am so ready .Its good that I don't have to worry about school because were out for summer break, but it is starting up in 2 weeks.

Leaving my friends and town that I basically grew up in is kinda hard but hey it's worth it. I just hope that my mama get her self together and understand that I was serious about leaving.

(WOW I am so sorry that I never told you guys who I am......but my name Is Kyla Arianna Miller. Most of my family calls me Kam becuz of my initials. I'm 17 and I'm lightskin but I'm all black. I got long pretty thick hair that stops at the middle of my back. I'm 5'5 and I'm thick in all the right places and gotta nice sized booty and a nice sized top to match. I got dimples and braces because I need them, but I'm getting them off soon. I am very good in basketball which is crazy because I am sometimes very girly. I also take care of a 3 year old that is my little brother jaron but I call him jay. That's it!!)!

I felt my nose being pecked while I was sleeping and when I opened my eyes it was no one other than jay. "Hey sleepy head" he said. "Morning big head, why you always messing with me while I'm sleep" I asked while walking to go wash my face&brush my teeth. "I don't know but I'm hungry Kam" he said while rolling on the floor. "We'll what do you want for breakfast?" I said walking to the kitchen and him following. "ummm French toast and bacon". "ok I'll make that with eggs to." I started getting out all the food while jay was watching Nickelodeon, not before he came and started asking a lot of questions like he usually does. "Kam why do we have boxes and we're is our stuff." He asked looking very curios. "Hey guess what" I said trying to make this easy and so he wouldn't start bugging me about everything. "What?". "Me and you are moving somewhere". "Where?" he asked while climbing in the chair so he could face me while I'm cooking. "To Atlanta where grandma lives and all the rest of our family". I said wanting to end the conversation but I know that he will just continue to talk. "Is Mommy coming to?" he asked with hope in his eyes. I sighed because I didn't really know how to put this. "Jay, mommy is going through a bad time right now but when she gets out of that bad time she will come and stay with us ok". "Is she going to get hurt?" ugghh why do toddlers ask the most questions to the worst situations. "No she's going to be just fine" I said putting his plate in front of him and scooting him up. "But were going to have a lot of fun when we move." I said trying to put a smile back on his face. "Really?" "Yea and we're leaving tomorrow" "yayyyyyy I'm ready to have fun" he said while throwing his hands up. I just hope that us moving is going to be for the better. Even though me and my mom aren't on good terms I would love to hug her one more time before we take off tomorrow.

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How did you guys like it! I know it was kinda short.. we'll at least to me it was. But please vote and comment and tell me how my 1st Chapter was or what can make it better or needs to change. Thanks!!!!!!