For Better or For Worse - an Owen and Amelia story

The Talk

Amelia's pov

I had been avoiding Owen for weeks now. When I took the pregnancy test and it was false I had felt so relieved. I was too ashamed to tell that to Owen because he had been so happy to start a family with me. How are you suppose to tell the man you love that you don't want kids? Then we had that argument in the stairwell at work. He was obviously upset and I hated seeing him like that knowing I was the one that caused that pain. I had been staying at Edwards place for a few weeks knowing Owen would never think that I was there. I eventually asked Meredith if I could move back in with her. Edwards was probably sick of me even though she swore she wasn't.

I woke up to the sound of my alarm. I looked at the clock 6:00am. Why can't I sleep for just five more minutes? That's when a wave of nausea hit me. I immediately ran to the bathroom and threw up the contents of last nights dinner.

Meredith and Maggie both woke up a few seconds later and saw me in the bathroom. Meredith immediately came in and held my hair back. Once I was done I went to the sink and rinsed my mouth out.

"Amelia are you ok?" Maggie said in a worried tone.

"Yeah I'm fine. Probably just a bug or something." I replied

"Well at least your not pregnant." Meredith said with a laugh. Maggie laughed along with her. I froze at her comment. Sure she was just joking but what if she's right? Meredith and Maggie both saw my expression and stopped laughing.

"Oh my god are you?" Meredith asked.

"I-I don't know. Maybe." I say quietly almost in a whisper.

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At work I avoid Owen as much as possible. I know he wants to talk but I'm just not ready yet. Especially now that there might be another life growing inside of me.

The work day goes by fast and luckily I managed to avoid Owen all day. Besides one moment when I was paged to the er for a consult.

Once home, Meredith and Maggie both usher me inside and to the bathroom. They push me inside and put the plastic bag from the store in my hands.

"We'll be here waiting for you when you're done." Meredith smiled.

I breath in and brace myself for what I'm about to do. I give them one last look before closing the door.

Once I am finished I open the door to reveal them still standing there. We set the timer and then stood there. Now comes the hard part, waiting. My mind starts to wander at the thought of a little human growing inside of me. Something that is a part of me and a part of Owen. I can just imagine him throwing a football around in the yard with our son or dancing with our daughter stepping on his feet in the middle of the living room. God I love him so much I could imagine a whole lifetime with him. I probably ruined all of that when I ran though. That's what I do best, I run. When things get hard I run. I decided right then no more running. No matter what this test said I was going to fix things with Owen and I wasn't going to run anymore. I was pulled from my thoughts as the timer went off. I grip the edge of the counter with my hands. I breath in. Now or never right? Meredith and Maggie look at me with anticipation in their eyes. I pick up the test and tears start to form in my eyes.

"Well what's it say?" Maggie asked.

I look up at them with watery eyes and smile as I show them the two little lines.

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The next day at work I avoid Owen again. I know I said I wanted to fix things with him but I don't know how. I don't know where to start or what to say. I know he notices that i've been purposely avoiding him.