Little ~Solby~

One

TW: talk of abuse

Sam's POV

After a lot of thought and consideration, I'm over what happened in my last relationship. Everything was fine, until I told him I was a little. He was supportive, at first. He even agreed to be my caregiver, I had explained how everything worked, he seemed to understand. He really did not, he seemed to think the objective was to make me feel horrible, so I would cry. He would call me things like "Freak" and "pervert". He would also hit me, not just for a punishment but relentlessly, it seemed to be what he enjoyed. I tried to leave, he found me and brought me back and beat me harder than ever. I couldn't take it any-loner, I ended up moving in with my parents while I was filling a restraining order on him, in the process he was convicted and sentenced to seven years in federal prison. I finally felt safe, I moved to L.A a few months ago, I feel much safer being a couple thousand miles away from the last place he saw me. I don't really know anyone out here and I really don't enjoy large social situations. I finally felt that I was ready to start dating. Instead of getting into a relationship then telling them I'm a little, I decided to just try a DDLB dating site. Out of the hundreds I took I managed to find six pictured I liked, I posted them along with a brief description of myself. I posted all my information, not expecting anything. I was watching tv while laying in bed, my phone went off, an email from the website. I immediately opened my computer and went to notifications:

Spencer: "Hey cutie"

Sam: "Hey"

Spencer: "I want to fuck you so hard you can't walk"

--Sam has blocked Spencer--

That is not what I'm looking for, I'm looking for a caregiver and maybe more. It all depends on the person. I was just about to go to sleep but I got a notification:

Colby: "Hey there!"

Sam: "Hey"

Colby: "How are you?"

Sam: "I'm good, how about you?"

While I was waiting form him to reply I looked through his profile, he's really hot. We seem pretty compatibly based on the description we both had.

Colby: "I'm pretty good as well! I'm not trying to be invasive but, what are you looking for? I couldn't figure it out from your profile."

Sam: "I'm looking for a caregiver and maybe more..."

Colby: "Nice! I'm looking to be a caregiver and maybe more lol"

Sam: "What a coincidence!"

Colby: "I'm going to sleep now... talk tomorrow?"

Sam: "yeah, I'm going to sleep too goodnight"

Colby: " Goodnight"

My dreams were filled with Colby, I'm pathetic, the first person to show me affection in months. I feel like I'm falling for him but I don't know if I can trust my judgment. I've been so lonely lately, it could just be the euphoric feeling of being acknowledged by another living being, it could also be something real. I cannot let myself ruin this before it even begins.