My suicide story

The past has been brought up

There was a party that I had gone to on New Year's Eve, the host was a guy I went to primary school with.

Why not?, right. I had never been to a New Years Party before, not knowing what to wear I got all dressed up and had a couple drinks before I had left.

My best friend had bailed on me and I ended up being the only girl at the party🤦🏻‍♀️ thanks for the warning guys!.

And thinking that I wasn't the only girl I had agreed to stay the night and continue drinking.

I finished all the drinking I had bought to the stupid party and by then I started feeling sick. Turns out everyone had already decided to stay the night as well.

I remember bits and pieces, I was dizzy but not to the point of actually passing out.

After the party my so called mate Seth(the host) had blocked me on Facebook, not sure why I mean I remember making out at the party but that was it..

I had asked another friend that had gone to the party what happened and he said that Seth blocked me because I had a double chin😔.

Until recently I had found another guy that had gone to the party on Facebook and we started talking about the party...

Me being me I asked what happened at the party, he replied with "if you don't remember it sucks to be you😏"
Here I am thinking they did something to me while I was asleep... and this guy just kept playing mind games, saying he wouldn't tell me what had happened.. by then I had assumed the worst😣 feeling gross, used and abused I walked to my room and dug through my cupboard for my special box, digging out the one thing I needed to distract me and punish myself for thinking I could actually go to a party.

Turns out I had cut myself for no reason and the guy had actually made me believe I was raped😣.

I turned back to my trusting friend that went to the party and he told me; all that happened was everyone wanted to share the bed with me because I was the only girl.

WHAT KIND OF A CUNT ACTUALLY DOES THAT TO SOMEONE THOUGH?!?!😡😭

🤦🏻‍♀️ I'm done with guys.

LOVE YOU ALL AND STAY STRONG!♥️❤️