Losers

Chapter: 3

They put me in a sment room with a table. I was alone and scared. Some guy came in. And looked at me as if I was his chiled.

"Where are your parents?" The man asked. I didn't respond. 

"Where do you live?" 

I don't think he will ever shut up so I'll give him what he wants.

"With my boyfriend." I said quietly standing in the corner of the room.

"You were put on the missing children list."

"Good for you." I said like a bitch.

"That bitch would never love me, at least I'm with people who care what I do." I said thinking about walking out of the door.

"Can I see my boyfriend?" I asked.

"Yes you may, I'll let him in." Aiden burts into the room and hugged me picking me up and spinning me around.

"Where did you get that ring?" The man asked.

"Aiden gave it to me." we left the room and started heading home. 

"I think someone is following us." I said quietly.

"Your just paranoid." He said quietly.

Arriving at his house I felt the worm air rush out of the house. It was only March 15th. I was cold and well I wanted sex but who says I ever asked for it or has actually done it. I was a virgin but I never will ask for sex or at least for now. 

The next day we all got up early to head to school. I run up stairs and put on my black ripped jeans, my New black boots and my sweater. I hated wearing shirts.

Zach drove the truck while Bryan, Nate, Aiden and I sat in the back. Sure were losers but some how popular. No one liked me because off my friends before. But that was over. I have memories of us wanting to make a band and wanting to be friends forever. I was 17 now and have the same boyfriend as I did in 8th grade. That was a long time but we were off and on again dateing. 

My mom never knew a good guy when she seen one. So I began to learn a good guy when I seem them I would just get a vibe when they wernt right. I also remember making a new friend In my since class named Georgia but every one called her GG. She was like me I keep her a secret tho because she could understand me the best better than every one else could. It was nice. I didn't even tell Aiden. 

Aiden pulled out a box of cigarettes and handed one to each of the guys. They lit them and began smoking. Aiden lit his last like always and we would share sometimes. 

15minuets later

We were walking the halls oh high school.  I was wearing Aidens hoodie and his arm was wrapped around me. For get what I said about no one likeing me it was the women who didn't like me.  I was able to get any guy I wanted. All the guys checked me out. It was very uncomfortable. That's what Aiden was their for. First hour great reading. I thought. We always got computers to work on which I thought was awsome. I played videogames and talked to Aiden through text. 

"Just tell me if im too gentel then I can be more rough" Aiden messaged me from are previous conversation.

"....." I was speechless. What made it worse is I couldn't tell anyone what happen Friday.

"Lol" 

"What??"

"Nothing"

"Come on Aiden tell me please"

"No"

"Please baby come on"

"Keep asking and I'll brake up with you"

"That's black mail and fine, I guess I'll just quit talking now"

"No I enjoy listening to you talk"

"You do?" I messaged confused so they don't listen to teachers or their parents but they listen to there girlfriend weird.

We'd keep talking for a while all the way threw to 4 hour.

"So I'm a slut in your mind"

"Yep"

"How"

"Not saying"

"Is it because of Friday or they way I dress or act"

"All 3"

"Welp"

"Ly (love you)"

"Lyt (love you too) 

I'm sorry I talk to much" I messaged because I felt I needed to quit talking.

I couldn't go a day without talking to him it was hard for me too. I would get my phone taken away and I would have a mental brakedown. Tears would just roll down my face till I got it back. Aiden was my drug my addiction. When he wouldn't talk to me I would just spamm him till he would message back or if shake. 

Being in love with someone was and addiction for me. But the thing that know one knew was that I was scared of being single of being alone. It would almost be like saying hey look at me I'm single come grab my ass and rape me Bitch. As weird as it sounds it was true I didn't like the thought of any of that happening to me. At the end of the day I told Aiden I was scared of being single.

"Why."

"It's like saying hey look I'm single come grope me. Or having anyone slap my ass. I don't even like anyone else touching me but I do make exceptions When it comes to friends and hugs."

"Oh."

At his house I felt almost as if I was at home. So I wrote a letter saying that I would be back. I open my window and stood on the roof standing there thought about the best way to get down. 

"So if I go down there I have to got that way then all I have to do is jump." 

"Autumn what the fuck are you doing, come inside your going to get cold and sick." Said Aiden from inside. 

So I got back in the house. 

"Can I have a cappuccino?" 

"Ya I'll go get you one."

As he left the room I pulled out my diary and began to write.