Losers

Chapter: 4

3/15/21

Dear Diary,

I'm scared of being single, just the thought of being alone. I mean you know why I was a bitch is because I had no one there for me. No one to hold me when I'm crying or to have arms wraped around me when I'm cold. No one to actually love me and to not be that bitch I that always.

Peace out

Quickly putting away my diary Aiden walks into my room with my cappuccino. 

"Thank you."

"No problum babe. Wanna go to a party tonight."

"Yassssssss, who's?"

"I don't know."

I laugh "Ok."

For one day in my life ok maybe more but when I got to go to party's I would always dress up really nicely. I put on a strapless dress that when you spin it gets bigger and I don't mean that inappropriately. And I put on my black boots. They matched so well. While Aiden was getting ready taking a shour I went into his room just because. Acitualy it wasn't a mess. It was clean and organized. I look around his room and see a piece of paper sticking out of a droor. I pick it up and begin to read.

Dear love of my life, 

I know I'm not home and the guys are just know you are safe with them and I'll be back. No I'm not cheating on you. I'm out to get you something special. Something I know you'll love so if you are reading this I think it's time. 

I hear Aiden getting out of the shour. I quickly fold the price of paper and put it back where I found it. I wack back to my room and into the bathroom to do my makeup.  Black eye liner, black mascara. I didn't do the eye shadow because it would always smear across my face. I started doing my hair and curled my dirty bond and red mix. Then Aiden knocked on my door.

"You ready?" He said through the door. Then I opened the door.

"Yep." I said standing in front of him. He backed up once and looked at me from head to toe. 

"Nice."  He winked at me.

I grabbed my phone and see I had a message from Brianna. She began to worrie me.

"I'm sorry, I know I'm not someone you choose. You just settle for someone like me."

So I message back.

"What are you talking about I love you and there is only one of you, Brianna no one can replace you, I wouldn't trade you for the world."

Then Aiden pulls me down stairs. Zach and Bryan both looked at me from head to toe.

"You really had dress up didn't you." Zach said.

"Well I could dress like you all lazy like wearing sweatpants and Aidens sweater with nothing underneath."

Bryan laughed and Zach responded.

"No I rather you look like a princess."

I laughed and we all got in the truck. A few minutes latter at the party. Now it was like 8 30 and we all waked up to the house. 

"Invatations please." I handed him all of our Invatations. 

"Good girl." Aiden said to me. Bryan and Zach chuckled.

We walked into the house and everyone was there from  high schoolers to collage students. Thank god there was a bar I might need a drink tonight. I thought. Of course there was underage drinking oh and I can't forget about smoking. 

"Wanna drink baby?" 

"Ya." 

We walked to the bar and I asked for a cherry Pepsi vinila and Aiden asked for a regular Pepsi. Zach and Bryan went to do there own thing. Probly picking up girls. Then I look for Zach and I see him with some girl so I walk over to him.

"Who is this?" I asked Zach

"Who the hell is this, is she your girlfriend?" she was ready to slap him.

"Oh no I'm not I'm curently dateing someone."

"Oh." she said 

"This is Taylor."

"Well nice to meet you Taylor." 

"Same to you." Taylor said be for I walked away.

That was wow she was acting like they have been darting forever.  Pull out my phone and message Brianna again.

"Hey you should come to this party."

"I don't know Autumn, I don't like people." 

"Maybe you'll meet someone nice who Will like you for you like I do."

"Fine I'll come, but if someone dies its not my fault."

"Ok.

She was stubborn, but then she has always been. The music was loud. I sat next to Aiden on the couch. By 10 I could smell alcohol. By then Aiden and I had already had a few drinks and Brianna showed up but she was alone all the way in the back, she already told me to leave her alone so that's what I did.

Aiden picks me up and sets me on his lap. He kissed me so I kiss back. Then we began to make out. For me it was weird to be in public doing this but I didn't care. I just hope everyone gets drunk enough they won't remember. He put his hand up my dress and groped me, he also grabbed my ass. This was normal he does this all the time in public. 

I blushed as he dose what he normally does on are dates. We talk about life, have fun, make out, sometimes he even fingers me. And that's what he began to do but makeing about with me kept me from moaning. 

Later at like 3 AM we all went home, like always Bryan was coming single and Zach came with Taylor. 

"Did you have a good time?" Aiden asked me whispering in my ear. I smiled.

"Yes I did." I said quietly back. With us all drunk but Bryan he drove Aidens truck back home. Getting back to the house I couldn't walk straight. So Aiden carried me bridal stial. Every one smiled and said aww. Getting inside Aiden and I went upstairs to bed. I cuddled up in his arms and fell asleep.