Thoughts Left Unsaid

Awkward

It's something that just is there
I don't really have control over it
It shows up on the times I need confidence

Sometimes I want to get rid of it
Mostly because it hates me sometimes
It makes me so socially awkward it's not funny

Then other days it's the best thing
It gets me out of things that I don't want to do
I even embrace it, then it does downhill

I never understood how people could act
So normal, they could simply talk to anyone
Not even awkward no trace of it

Then I go and try at least and it doesn't work
It just doesn't and I hate it
I just need to realize this is something

Something that's apart of me
It makes me who I am and I can't get rid of it
No matter what I do I always will be

Awkward.......