Star Of The Show

Chapter 21

I didn't sleep at all last night. Every time I closed my eyes, I saw Alan. It felt like a heavy weight was sitting on my chest. It felt like my whole world had ended.

"Laiken. Laiken Hey, We've got to get on the bus" Lettie says. I don't speak back to her. I grabbed my bag and went down to the tour bus. We were travelling to Ohio tonight. When I got on the bus, I went to my bunk, climbed in and shut the curtains, then turned over to face the wall. I hear footsteps outside of my bunk. I knew It was Alan because he was across from me. Knowing he was there made tears roll down my cheeks. I couldn't believe that it was over between us.

***Alan's POV***

I knew Laiken was on the bus and I her bunk already because the curtain was pulled back. I wanted nothing more than to pull it open and grab her and kiss her, but she broke up with me. She ended our relationship, and it felt like my world ended. Laiken was my world, and now she was gone. I don't think I could do anything to get her back.

***Hayley's POV***

Lake had broken up with Alan. Now was my chance. I had to strike while the iron was hot, and if I was lucky, Alan would need something to get his mind off of Laiken, and he would come back to me. The only problem was that Alan wouldn't even look at me because of that kiss. But, I had a plan to get him back, or should I say that I had a plan with someone else to get him back.

***Laiken's POV***

I could hear everyone in the living area laughing, joking, and having fun. All I could do was cry. I felt like my life was over. I just wanted something to take away all my pain. I thought about something I used to do when I was younger and Something I had done when Jacob broke up with me. I got out of bed and walked towards the bathroom. Tears still streamed down my cheeks.

"Laiken, You okay?" Lettie asks from the front of the bus. Everyone's attention turns to me, but I ignore her comment. I just go into the very small bathroom, and sit with my back against the door so no one could get in. I looked around the medicine cabinet to find a razor, but there wasn't any. I continued to sit on the floor with my shirt sleeve raised up. I looked over the pale skin on my arm. Scars from the past were barely visible. Suddenly, there was a knock at the door.

"Laiken, Are you done?" I hear Jenna's voice. I didn't reply, but I did move away from the door because I knew she would try to come in. "Laiken?" She says again and then creeps in. She immediately saw me sobbing on the bathroom floor with my sleeve rolled up. She knew what I was going to do.
"Oh, Laiken, please don't do that". She sits beside me.

"There aren't any blades" I say.

"Good! Are you insane? Why would you want to hurt yourself?" She asks.

"It takes the pain away" I say through tears.

"Yeah, but if something bad happened, the pain would go onto someone else" She says.

"Nothing happened before" I say.

"Before?" She questions and grabs my arms and analyzes them. "Laiken, are these from-?"

"I did it years ago when Jacob and I broke up. It made me feel better and forget about the pain he had caused me. I haven't done it in two years" I explain.

"Looks like you were about to relapse" She says.

"I-I just want everything to stop" I say. "I don't want to burst into tears every time he looks at me, I don't want to feel my heart break all over again when someone says his name, I want him to disappear".

"You know this is all going to blown over, right?" She asks.

"I don't care about him anymore" I say. I was very much lying about it.

"Yes, you do, Laiken. You are always going to care about him because you love him" She says.

"Yeah, You don't have to remind me" I say.

"You can do one of two things" She says. "One: You can choose to ignore him and Jenna, and pretend that it never happened. Or, you can talk to him and try to work this out".

"Why would we try to work it out?" I ask.

"Because you love each other" She says. "You can both say you don't care anymore and that you don't think about what happened, but you're always going to care about and love each other. Always". She was right. I was always going to love Alan. I didn't want too, but I knew I would.

A/N: this chapter is personal to me because a 10 year friendship that i had with a friend recently ended...everyone tells me i love him and still care, and they are absolutely right.