Ramblings of a writer (collection of short stories and such)

Dont go

"You... You can't leave me." I clutched her hand tighter as if I could transfer my life to her though the palm of my hand.

She smiled lamely the fake happiness not quite reaching her eyes. "I'll always be here," she whispered clichély pointing at my heart. Her sad attempt to make me smile broke me, I couldn't take it anymore.

"That's bullshit and you know it. Even if your memory haunts me everyday of my life it won't be you. Your smile, your laugh, your jokes, your hugs, everything that makes you you, they won't be there. I love you Maya deeply and irreversibly and I will fight to remember your memory everyday. I'm just scared you'll fade I'm scared one day I'll break down and won't remember the sound of your laugh echoing in my mind, I won't remember a single corny joke you've told, I'll no longer have your face burned in the back of my mind. I'm fucking scared Maya. I just wish we had more time." It was as silent as a hospital room could be with the steady beeping like a ticking time bomb. "Well... Say something so I don't look stupid.."

"I can't fight anymore Mac. The treatments aren't working you've heard the doctors I've got a week at best. Can you be anymore selfish! I'm dying and all you can think is how its going to screw up your perfect life. I love you Mac but I'd rather my last days be full of smiles and good times with my best friend than confusion over whatever this is. I love you so so much but I can't right now. Maybe if there were more time. Please just go I can't deal with this right now."

If it were anyone else I would've left but this was Maya and I could read her like a book. So I did the only reasonable thing I could think of. I kissed her. It was angry and urgent and gentle and loving, everything I dreamed... Well not everything my dreams are a little PG 13 for such a public place.

"Wha-". She stammered grinning her eyes full of happiness and confusion. I handed her a piece of worn notebook paper containing a barely legible list.

Mayas bucket​ list
1. Ride a train ✔
2. Convince mom to get a dog✔
3. Build a treehouse ✔
4. Swim in the ocean✔
5. Get my first kiss
6  Ride an airplane✔
7. Run a marathon ✔
8. Write a story✔
9. Eat octopus ✔
10. Go to another country✔

"I wrote this in  fourth grade... That was what 8 years ago? How'd you get this.. Why do you have this."

"That was the day we became friend." I answered.

4th Grade

"Ok class I'm going to pair you up for your maths projects."  My teacher droned on as I silently listened for my name. "Mac Reynolds and Maya Lancaster." I was so nervous Maya was my first crush and I didnt think I could sit next to her and not stare at her beautiful black hair and her stunning blue eyes. "Alright class go sit by your partners and brainstorm." I walked over to Mayas desk and sat down my little 9 year old heart thumping in my chest.

"Hi I'm Mac." When she didn't look up I sat next to her. "What're you writing." she was thoughtfully listing things out.

"These are all the things I wanna do before I ever die. I know I have a million years but I wanna plan ahead." The little girl sighed. "I don't have any friends though and I cant finish it alone, guess its stupid anyways." She looked down embarrassed.

I gave a crooked smile. "That all sounds awesome! I'll do it with you! Wanna be my best friend?." She nodded and we went about our project. When the bell rang she left the list on her desk and I neatly folded I and put it in my pocket.
*end of flashback*

"That day I swore I would do everything on the list with you before we got old, and now I have."

"Thanks Mac, I'm getting tired. Come back tomorrow?" She grinned. I gave her another quick peck and walked out the door. That was the last time I ever saw Maya. She was moved to a hospital a few states away for surgery and died 3 days later.

A/N I really like the concept I have here and I'm thinking of making it a longer and more complex story with more flashbacks and depth. Would you guys read that?