Olatunji Family [ KSI ]

Chapter 22 - I'm still me

It's been a day since me coming home and Elijah is still not talking to me. I am home alone with the kids no JJ or Jason. They are still fighting the whole thing of me helping them out. So Becca has to help me deal with Elijah. This morning is the first time that the kids are going to see JJ and Jason. After that, we have to go to my mother and brother's funeral and we still haven't told Lyssa so I have to do that today too.

Right now I'm trying to get my wheelchair and get my kids ready but I can't because I can't even get off the bed. I grab onto the nightstand and move my leg ever so little then I scream from pain and fall. I lay on the floor crying to myself till Becca comes in and brings my chair to me. When I get in it she stops me before I leave my room.

"Mom I know that it's hard for you to deal with this and being here without our dad is even harder. But I and Elijah need for you to be strong. I know it may seem like you aren't but you are just know everything will work for the better" She says.

"I know Becca I just have to get used to this wheelchair thing I have always been on my feet even when I gave birth to you and your brother I am just not ready to give that up" I cry.

She doesn't say anything and hugs me. We go to the steps and Becca watches me go up the steps on my butt and does the same thing as I did so I wasn't alone. I crawl to his room and put myself on his bed and we wake him up together.

Right, when he wakes up he hugs me and says " mommy I really missed you this crazy lady in a chair with wheels was saying that she was my mommy when she wasn't".

"Honey Elijah that was me I am still the same mommy I just can't walk as we as I use to be. I need your sister and you to help some. I know you're used to me being able to do everything but I can't. Okay, baby will you please help mommy?" I ask.

"No I won't help you, you aren't my real mommy stop telling me that" he cries.

I try to stand to show him that it's me and that I didn't change. But I fail and I start to fall Becca hurries and helps me before I hit the ground. Becca helps me sit back down on Elijah's bed. You can see in her face that she is getting mad at Elijah for what he did.

"Elijah you need to cut it. I know you have autism and change messes with your brain but this is mommy what does she have to do you show you that she is our mommy." She says.

"She needs to sing. I'm not telling her which song because mommy would know which song." He says.

When he says that I start to sing our song.

"Golden slumbers kiss your eyes,
Smiles await you when you rise.
Sleep,
Pretty baby,
Do not cry,
And I will sing a lullaby.

Cares you know not,
Therefore sleep,
While over you a watch I'll keep.
Sleep,
Pretty darling,
Do not cry,
And I will sing a lullaby "