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After lunch we walked to his car. He opened the door and I nodded in response.
I had to tell him exactly where to go to get to my house. When we pulled into my
drive way there was a moment of awkward silence.
"Here we are" he said
"Yeah"
"Thanks for lunch and for the ride home"
"No problem"
"So have you been keeping our promise?" He said with a concerned face
"Yeah, i haven't since the day you found me doing it"
"Good, if you ever need someone to talk to I'm here"
"Thanks, that means a lot"
"I know that we haven't been talking for so long, but I just thought you should know"
"Thanks"
"Rue" he said with a smile that could light up the whole world
"Yeah?"
"Can I hold your hand?"
"Sure" I said stuttering
This was the first time I guy has ever asked to hold my hand. When they touched, there
was this unexplainable feeling that shot through my back. And then the butterflies came
back. "I'll walk you to the door" he said. I didn't want to get out of the car. The feeling of
his hand in mine was almost to good to be true, and I didn't want him to leave. He ran
to the other side of the car to open the door. It was so polite when he did that, he never
acted like this at school. We walked to the door and we hugged goodbye. And for a
minute there when he let go I thought we were going to kiss. But instead he just said
goodbye and walked away. And all I could think of was why didn't he kiss me.
Its 1:00, and I can't sleep. All I can think about is Jake.
1:00 I'm still awake.
1:01 You're in my head.
1:02 I Smile.
1:03 I think of your eyes.
1:04 I try to sleep again.
1:20 You're still in my head.
1:30 I still can't sleep.
1:40 Get out of my head
2:00 I think of your lips
3:00 You.
4:00 I'm tired.
5:00 You're still in my head.
6:00 You're in my heart.
7:00 I finally fall asleep
8:00 I get ready for school.
I get up and start heading for the bathroom. On the way their I pass the picture of my
dad and all these memories come flooding back into my head. And then I remember
about how my mom doesn't care about me, and how much I get teased at school, and
how alone I feel, and then I burst out in tears. I start knocking down all the pictures
from my wall, all the books on my shelf, all the bottles of Mikes Lemonade I kept. And
then my legs give out on me and I collapse. And there I was lying down in between the
shards of broken glass. I open my eyes and I notice a shiny piece of metal on the floor
next to me. And then I find myself under the shower head with red water pouring down
the drain. I tried my best to keep my promise with Jake, but it just happened.
After my shower I decide to go to the library. I put on some jeans, a white shirt and
some Chucks. I drive to the downtown library, it's about 4 stories tall. It's my favorite
library since I'm able to go to the last story where it's empty so I can read in silence. I
got a car for my 16 birthday. It was Dad's but when he passed I got it. I got a call asking
if I could cover someone at work today, I said yes since I could use the extra money.
I work as a Cashier at The Burger Joint. It's not the best job but at least I get paid. The
only bad thing that I can say about work is the people that come to eat. I see about half
the people from school here. Luckily the uniforms are long sleeved. Work today was
From 3-10. And I only got made fun of 17 times, by the kids at my school.
I got home and mom still wasn't here. I walk through the kitchen and see in note on the fridge.
"Went out, won't be back until around midnight. -Mom."
It was 11:00 by the time I got home so I decided to wait to see her. I put on some
music and started drawing. I just started scribbling on the paper until I realized that it
looked like dad. I looked up and in all my picture frames I saw dad. Each one had
changed and they all had memories of me and dad in them. In one I saw dad lighting up
the candles for my 2 birthday. In another I saw dad cutting my umbilical cord when I
was born. In another I saw dad watching me at my kindergarten graduation. Then I
woke up, I must've fallen asleep. I check my phone and it's 12:30. I walk into moms
room and find her passed out drunk on her bed. I take off her heels and put I blanket on
her. Just like every other night. I head back to my room and turn off my music. I change
into some sweats and a t-shirt and crawl back into my bed. Worst mistake ever.
I fall asleep and then I find myself at the lake with my dad. I see my mom taking a
picture of us all the way in the deep end. I see mom sitting in the shade reading a book
eating watermelon. Then I see me and dad splashing each other and then him helping
me do front flips underwater. And then before I know it I see dad pick me up and throw
me across the water. I go under water for a few seconds and then find myself wiping
away the water from my eyes just to find my dads head separated from his body
surrounded in bloody water. And then all I hear is a yell, And I wake up screaming.
