The Boy that Loves Horses

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Hi I am Lillie I am what they call a rebel because I have been in jail two times and this last time I was in there for almost a year and now I am on probation. They want to send me to a person that I don't even know. There are two reasons on why I am on probation and those are that my "so" called friends back in Texas said that we should skip school and go to the closest store well when we were leaving Amber (the leader of our group) put a $250 bracelet and a $4oo necklace in my bag and blamed me for stealing them she also called the police. I was in jail for that for 6 months.

After that my dad got a promotion and we packed up and went to Alberta, Canada. I was still so mad at my old friends that there was a party at a house that was near mine and I went to it and got so drunk that I got alcohol poisoning and then the police busted up the party and I went back to jail and spent another 12 months in jail and went to rehab for 4 months. After rehab I have not thought about drinking or even smoking. I want to start new by my old self again before I met Amber. I left my best friend Emma to be friends with Amber, I might find her on Facebook and apologize for my actions and ask to be friends again.

I miss my old life because I had an amazing relationship with my mom and dad. When I started having my rebellious stage I shut them out. I shut everyone that I cared about out even my brother Bailey. Bailey and I were close but I guess I ruined that and I have no idea if he will forgive me. I want to try to fix things with my family and hopefully it isn't to late. Having my family hate me for my actions is a horrible thing to think about. I am surprised that they haven't disowned me yet honestly. Even though it doesn't seem like it but I love my family and I didn't mean to hurt them. I guess its true family is going to be there for you when you need them the most. I want to change my life around starting with not going back to jail.

Bailey has always been the forgiving one out of us two. I was never the one to forgive people because I held grudges and I still do. Bailey made me mad once because he took my favorite boots and threw them in the bathtub filled with water. I told mom and she went and got them out but they were ruined, he tried and tried to ask for forgiveness but I didn't budge. I finally forgave him a year later and he bought me another pair exactly like the ones he ruined.