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chapter 2

I always hated this school I thought to myself as I walked through the school parking lot. my car wasn't much but it got me where I needed to go.I got in my car and was about to pull out when I got a text from Ryan. " Cant wait for tonight babe, been thinkin about it all day;) " i locked my phone and threw it on the floor banging my head into the stearing wheel. I knew this wasnt right, it didn't feel right. I havnt done anything since the 8th grade. let's just say he had no idea what he was doing and it was the worst experience I've ever had.

dammit! I yelled smashing on the breaks. horns coming from in front of me. this is what made me so differant from my friends. I get so completely and utterly hurried in my thoughts. it's like I go into another universe when I think. tuning out everything leaving only me and my mind. I ignored the old lady and her middle finger and made my way down Ryan's street pulling into his driveway. I thought I looked cute. I had a tight black crop top and some high waisted tights that met my belly button and showed my belly ring, black heels and a black purse to match with my curled blonde hair. my hair Still managed to hit my butt when I walked. I only had mascara on because I hated the way makeup felt on my skin. I knocked on the door making a beat like I always did. Ryan's mom answered embracing me in a hug and kiss on the cheek. Ryan's mom always loved me because all of Ryan's other girlfriends were....let's just say not so respectful. I made my way up the stairs onto Ryan's room. he was playing call of duty. "Ryan ... " I said trying to get his attention. A loud noice came from the tv and Ryan looked at me in disappointment. "seriously bella, you know not to talk to me when I'm playing " I looked at him with one eyebrow lifted. "you're joking right " I said disgusted with what he just said. "GOD DAMMIT BELL , you didn't even knock! " I hated when he said that , it made my jaw clench and my fist tighten when he said my name like that . "shut the he'll up Ryan, I'm done with your shit, how do you expect me to have sex with you when your still a fuckin child" Ryan's hand lifted and swung down across my face throwing me to the ground. my face burned and I could feel my cheek heating up. I cupped my cheek feeling the tears roll down. raising my head slowly I could see In his eyes that he regretted what he had just done. "bella" Ryan said in a quiet tone. I stood up and whispered "I don't ever want to see your face again" I stood there letting him have a good look at the handprint he left on my cheek. then I walked out hugging his mom for the last time.