6:40 am Time to wake up. Blasting my new jam "Attitude" in order to be able to start my day.
7:30 am Entering my school I acknowledge the gate keeper and start my way through the 3-level stairs. Now listening to Eminem.
7:50 am My classroom starts filling with my so called friends. I pretend to be asleep as to not hear the stupid shit that makes my neurons suicide. Sometimes I also use this time to read something or play Episode. That could be a resumé of my social interactions, just kidding I have friends.
9:10 am First break. People pretending to care about each others bussiness, now I'm listening a song called Batuque, chil but kind of good.
10:40 am Second break. I can tell that people start to be hungry, me as well, but if I buy something then I'll have to eat it in front of them and they'll start making me feel inferior or worse fat. I don't eat anything.
12:10 pm I go to my house, I eat whatever the fuck I want in order to keep my curves in shape, I study.
6:40 am Time to go, I guess. Listening to Revenge by XXXTentacion.
7:50 am Today I have to make myself appear interested in whatever they are telling, otherwise they'll think I'm in one of my "crisis" and start to act as they actually care when in fact they are doing it to feel as a kind soul. Bitches.
9:10 am. I'm over this shitty place. I need to escape. I have had enough.
I pretend as if I'm feeling sick, and I escape towards the bathroom
12:10 pm Finally, time to go home, time to finally be whoever I want.
Fuck routines, fuck establishments, how can I actually do something worthwhile, something different if all I've been taught is to be like others?
"be yourself they tell you" and by yourself they mean a correctely, well educated son of god.
As if.
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Teen FictionDoesn't it get boring? Watching people as they express their happiness, their love, their understanding. How can I not be like them? I mean I could if I wanted, but why would I want to feel nothing and everything at the same time?
