i hate the way i react to things
im a literal fucking child
why cant i talk to people normally
why can't i ask normal questions
why can't i just not be afraid to say whats on my mind
all i do is lock myself in the filth in my room and cry now
i ignore everyone
im too tired to respond
i see everyone all together having fun and im locked inside laying on piles of dirty laundry and soda cans
i just want to lie here and die sometimes
its my fault they don't want to speak to me
am i intimidating?
i feel like people think i am
i hate myself for becoming such a hermit
i cant go outside without automatically feeling uncomfortable
i cant talk to people without wanting to curl up in a ball and cry
its becoming so fucking hard to smile and laugh
its becoming really hard to pretend im happy
its tiring
im tired
im always tired
my mom doesn't believe anything's wrong and refuses to take me to a therapist or anything
i just want help
i dont want to feel like this
i dont want to feel actual fucking fear before stepping outside my door and walking to my bus stop for school
i dont want to pretend to be happy anymore
i just want to be genuinely happy
no wonder people fucking hate me im always so problematic and i never know what to say when someone confronts me
i just apologize and try and pretend nothing happened
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✨thought jar✨
CasualeSince I decided to delete the rants off my art book, I decided to make a different one because honestly these help a lot. i'll take my thoughts and put them in this little jar. //some content may be triggering, i dont know. i like to put this here j...
