Beating : A story about love...?

Original Post (Oct. 9 7:37 PM)

Hey, I am writing this to ask for your help. See I met this girl in church (yes I go to church I am a Christian) a few weeks ago, for the sake of her privacy I will call her Jane so all you internet detectives out there don't need to bother trying to find her. Jane is insanely attractive, and I don't just mean that in a general sense. When I say insanely attractive I mean it is insane how many of her features are specifically attractive to me. Its like if you took all the physical features I find the most attractive and put them in one person and to be honest it is just a bit uncanny.

Anyway Jane and I have been flirting pretty heavily , as far as church flirting goes, with each other at every meeting since we met. Last night she kissed me. I am one of the leaders in the church so I am usually one of the last few to leave the church and last night was no different. I was walking through the parking lot towards my car when all the sudden I saw Jane walking towards me briskly. She didn't say a word she simply grabbed me and thrust her lips into mine. Now don't get me wrong I am not complaining the kiss was good but it was just kind of strange. I was sure I had seen her leave at least ten minutes before I had. I know we had been flirting but it is kind of a big jump to kiss a guy like that. I mean we haven't even gone out together. After we kissed we both heard the building door open from around the corner and she pulled away from me abruptly. I looked at her dumbfounded for a second and before I could say or do anything she was gone.

Ever since the kiss I have been oddly aware of the beating of my own heart. At first I thought that this was just excitement or nervousness but it hasn't stopped. I can hear it even now. That faint and constant "thump thump...thump thump". I wouldn't otherwise think anything of it but it is just so darn distracting. It may just be that I am focusing on it but I have tried everything to distract myself and I just can't. Music helps a little, isochronic rhythms an little more but nothing can take my mind off it entirely. So obviously the only thing I can do is turn to strangers on the internet. If anyone knows how to stop this or even why it is happening please tell me. I will provide updates in the comments below if anything changes so that all the information will be here. Thanks in advance for your help.