Update 6(Oct. 18 5:50 AM)

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I didn't get any sleep. At around 2:30 I forced myself to go lie in bed but that is all I did. Lie there, trying not to listen but still hearing it. That sound, that infernal, unbearable, involuntary rhythm. It is screwing with my head; making me forget things. I remember that I am supposed to call someone this morning but I can't remember who. I have looked back at last night's post several times to see who it was but I forget immediately. 
     It was 5 AM when I decided to give up on sleep and since I have nothing else to do I checked my phone. Jane had texted me sometime late last night. Her text read as follows.

     "Hey, I feel like we need to talk about whatever it was that happened earlier.  Did I do something wrong? I thought we were both feeling some chemistry there but then when you left so suddenly...I am sorry if I did anything that was scary or off-putting to you. Please, let me make it up to you. Come over to my house on Saturday and I will make you dinner. I promise I won't disappoint." 

I am not sure how I am going to respond to this yet. I don't feel like I could live with myself if I let our relationship drop just like that, but I don't want to risk making the sound worse again. I am certain it is linked to Jane somehow now. I just don't know how.  Right now I am just going to wait before answering and get some breakfast. I think I still have some Eggos in the freezer. 

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