As I write this today, I can truly say I am happy. Happy with who I am, and happy with my life. I'm thankful to have met you, and I hope one day we'll meet again, in the flesh.
When you're truly happy, it's like the air smells different, the whole world around you is brighter and any temperature seems bearable. You stop complaining about everything and start appreciating what you have. Your head becomes clear and you feel like you're on a different spiritual realm than everyone around you. Life becomes something you love. You fall in love with living life.
Madiha, I hope this is what you feel every minute of every day, getting out of bed daily with a smile and looking forward to what your days hold for you. I hope one day you will be surrounded by amazing people that you love and adore. I hope when you look in the mirror you see yourself just as beautiful as I see you, and that you love yourself in every way. I wish upon you a life with all the joy and no sadness. All the stars with none of the darkness.
I've been dreaming of a future that looks like our past, times filled with laughter and a silent love that no longer is silent now. To be honest, for some time I just liked to live in the moment and enjoy each day as it came, not worrying about the future. Now, while I still try to enjoy each day to it's fullest, I like to think ahead, to the future.
I've been thinking about the future a lot lately. To be honest, I don't know what I want to be, but I know what I could be. Realistically, there are so many ways my future could pan out to be like. I haven't decided anything yet, and it's not all upto me. All I know is I want to stay happy. All I can ever aspire to be someone you'd always want in your life.
I don't know what you want to be in the future, but I know a bit about who you are now. Your life seems devoted to photography now, capturing the Manchester skyline and fields full of flowers. You're like Cinderella, trying to be sane in a family that doesn't make sense. I know the feeling. It sucks to know it's harder for you to cope than it is for me, but I guess that's just how it is and I can't realistically do anything about it right now.
I wish I were there to see it, at least even once, a girl in the middle of a field, admiring the view, unaware that she's the most beautiful thing in the field, the flowers are just there to fill the space around you. A colourful backdrop to a rainbow in human form.
I hope one day you find someone that reminds you of how amazing you are everyday, and if not, you know where to find me.
