Dangerous feelings

Chapter 8

The words repeated over and over in Alison's head as she tried to get them to make sense. Emily had a son. He was taken from her. She was starting to really understand who Emily was, why her walls were so high, why she kept her heart so guarded. Emily had been through something no one should ever experience.

"Emily, I'm so sorry" Alison didn't know what else to say, nothing would take away the pain that Emily was feeling.

Emily shook her head, she didn't want Alison to feel pity towards her, she just wanted her to understand why she was like she is. There was more to her story and now that she had started to tell it she was determined to finish. She had never opened herself up to someone like this before, not voluntarily. Her friends found out at the same time Emily had, they were there when she turned up at the hospital to be told Samara had released herself. They were there when Emily looked around the whole town in search of her newborn son. They were there when she broke down and they were there when Emily eventually gave in to the realisation that Samara didn't want to be found.

"I started drinking after my dad passed away. He was my hero and a part of me died inside when he did. But with the help of my friends and my mother I gained control of myself and I started to make a future for myself. I got my job in accountancy and passed all the qualifications necessary. I met Samara a year after I joined the company. Samara moved from out of town and got a job at the accountancy with me and the more time we spent together the closer we got. After the heartbreak of my first real girlfriend Paige cheating on and leaving me and then the death of my father I had already built the walls around my heart. Neither one of us was ready for commitment though so it never really ended up working out when we tried. We both just used each other" Emily took a deep breath before continuing.

"Then she got pregnant and although we knew we wouldn't ever work as a couple we vowed to stick together as friends for the baby. I went to every appointment, I went out at 3am to buy her what she was craving. I did everything I was supposed to do. He was going to be the ray of light that kept me from the darkness. But instead she took him and ran. And I have all these nightmares about them and what could of happened." Emily started to break down again, she wanted nothing more than to find some alcohol and begin to drown herself in it once more.

Alison brought Emily into a tight embrace and just held her as she broke down. Soothing words and gentle hands attempting to calm down the brunette who's sobs were only getting louder.

"That's why I use girls, why I don't let anybody in. I hate what I've become but I didn't know how to change, not until I met you that was" Emilys words were barely audible in between her sobs.

Kissing her forehead Alison pushed Emily gently back so that she was lying in the bed once more. She appreciated the brunette letting her in and it only heightened the feelings that she felt towards Emily. Yes Emily had a past and it was messy, but it was nothing they couldn't work through together.

"You should try and sleep again, I'm going to phone Spencer to let her know your fine and tell her to come round tomorrow. Unless you want to see them now?" Alison asked cautiously, not wanting to overstep any boundaries.

"No you're right I just need to sleep. But tomorrow... can we go to the hospital? My hand really hurts" Emily said quietly and with a shy smile.

Alison nodded with a chuckle and tucked Emily into the covers kissing her softly on the lips before leaving the room to phone Spencer. She caught Emilys friends up on what she had been told and how Emily was before returning to sleep in the bed beside Emily. She wrapped her arm protectively around the already sleeping brunette and held onto her tightly.

Emily awoke at just after 5 am, having spent most of the previous day unconscious and her body fed up of resting she couldn't sleep any longer. The pain in her hand also contributing to her early wake up call and she knew that she had to make the trip to the hospital sooner rather than later. She moved restlessly in the bed and couldn't get comfy no matter what position she tried. She picked up her phone but wasn't surprised to find out it was dead, she couldn't remember the last time she had charged it. She was just about to get out of bed when she felt Alison stir beside her.