Elena's POV
"Elena? Hi!" Said Bonnie when she opened the door.
"Hey." I whispered back.
Bonnie surprisingly looked at me. " Are you okay? You look a bit sad.." She said with worrying voice. Right after that she took a step back, so I could walk into the house.
"Emm.. Yea" I took a deep breath. " Why? I'm great.. I'm really.. really good" I continued with a little smile on my face, hoping she won't ask any more questions.
"I know that smile, Elena. Tell me.. what's wrong?" She said. "Come inside." She continued.
"Thanks" I tried to smile.. then I went inside. I followed Bonnie into the living room. We sat on the couch.
"So, what's wrong? And don't say nothing, because I can tell it's something." She didn't even wait for my answer. "And you wouldn't even come here if everything would be okay."
I closed my eyes for a minute. She was right, she's always right. "Damn you, Bonnie Bennet." I said while I was opening my eyes again. "I came, because I feel sad and it's since.."
"Since Stefan left town?" She mumbled.
I opened my lips and looked at her with my devastated face. I haven't heard from him in such a long time. I did not hear his name. Damon didn't talk about him since he left and I didn't want to think about him either. Because I knew If I think about him, I'll feel terrible. His heart must be broken and it's just because of me.I made a decision and it destroyed him.
"Earth is calling Elena!" Bonnie gave me a little slap.
I shook my head and I looked right at my hands, which were shaking. "No... I don't know. I had this amazig summer with Damon and when it ended..." I swallowed. "When it ended and suddenly thought about him."
"About Stefan?"
"Yes, about him." I couldn't even say his name.
"Elena it's called guilt. You obviously still love him, but you can't blame yourself. He left the town, he wants you to be happy with Damon. He moved on. If you want to move on..." She stopped talking and she looked at me seriously. "Then you have to let him go too."
"But... I am just worried you know? I still care about him. How could I not? It's just weird he didn't text or something. At least to his brother."
"Trust me, Damon must be thrilled that Stefan is not around anymore. How many times did he mention him? None, see? I don't blame Stefan and to be honest I don't blame Damon either. He got you, he don't need his little brother."
"That's whar you wrong about. They need each other."
"Or you need Stefan back?" She asked and I gasped quietly.
"I'll always need him in my life, Bonnie... but as a friend. I love Damon." I sighted.
"Okay, that's a good start!" She clapped. "You love Damon, so be there for Damon and not for Stefan."
"Bonnie you are so confusing. Who do you even support?"
"No-one, I just want best for you. But it's only you... you should no what's best." She said friendly and it warmed my heart.
"Done." I said right away suddenly.
"What?" Bonnie asked.
"I picked Damon. The reason I picked him is that I'm not in love with Stefan anymore. You are right. I am moving on." I closed my lips and pushed hard. I said his name. I felt pain in my chest. Bonnie saw that, but said nothing and I was glad in that minute. I didnt know if I was convincing her... or myself.
//here's an update after long time so I have no idea if someone is gonna read it. It's suck actually but whatever how you like it anyway.
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