Into My Heart

Chapter - 4

I was standing in the same position still thinking what Sanam had said few minutes ago, i could barely think of any other thing other than his words. Sanam again sat on my bed.i started collecting my things to clean my room."i miss your specy look"Sanam said. I looked at him."no i mean you looked cute in specs"Sanam said. I smiled at him.

"Don't fall for him ananya, just don't, yeah it's true that he looks super charming & dashing but it's useless to love him" i reminded myself.

"Look, I'm gonna clean the other room tomorrow, so it will be better if you don't annoy me tonight"i said looking at him from the corner of my eyes.
Within friction of seconds sanam stood in front of me "so u think I annoy you ? And exactly how ?" Sanam said while taking his steps ahead. I was stepping backwards
"No i mean, i mean..." I was looking at him , stepping more closer. I was searching for something to take a hold and to stop. But soon i realized my efforts to go more backwards will go in vain as I hit the wall.
Sanam took to two or three more steps ahead. He caged me between his arms. Locking both of his hands beside me. My back glued to the wall. My heart started beating faster. My heart nearly tried to jump out of my chest. I didn't have the guts to look into his eyes. He just makes my heart drool in an instant.
"I annoy you ?" Sanam asked with an evil smile on his face.
"No no i meant , i meant, just don't do these things, i mean.."i was searching for the proper word but this super awkward situation made me unable to think of anything. I could only think of him .
Sanam stayed in the same position for more few seconds & said "don't stress , I'm not gonna eat you, i will change my room, but tonight let me sleep , you know I'm very tierd"

I looked down to avoid eye contact with him.

Sanam stepped back and this time sat on his bed , the bed that was supposed to be his for tonight.

I stood there a bit shocked in that same position.
Things are convenient for him but not for me, it takes me hours to get over these. It was difficult to love him from distance but when he is in front of me and when he himself removes the distances between us it becomes more difficult for me.
I just lack words, i can't think anything.he lefts me dumbfounded. He will never realize how badly my heart beats faster when he comes close to me. How badly i start loving him more and more he will never understand and I will never be able to explain it to him. Things are worst in my life !

I shook my head to distract me from all the thoughts. I took my things and went out of the room to give mom the dirty clothes.

I prepared the beds for both of us meanwhile sanam was using the washroom.

I lied down on the bed turning my back to Sanam's bed. I felt his steps approaching the bed and the sound of  movement in the blanket indicated that he turned the lights off & he too lied down.

5 minutes later

I slowly turned to see him as according to my calculation he should have fallen asleep by now. I turned to him ,at first I peeped from under the blanket,later when I made sure his eyes were closed , i removed the blanket and looked at him with a smile on my face.

"He made my life a little better after all these years, i know I'll love him till infinity but Its true i don't know about his emotions, but it's good that at least he is around..at least I can feel his presence near me, i can touch him, i can feel him, i can feel his touch, that will be far enough for me to live, he looks more charming than I imagined"
I thought and started blushing at 1 am for no reason.

Though the room was dark but still i could stare at his bright & handsome face like an insane. And it makes me blush like hell. I smiled silently.

"You better sleep now, if you are done staring at me "suddenly startling me sanam spoke.
I was statled by his sudden words. What ! He was awake . He saw all my stupidity !! God ! This is insane ! 

I quickly closed my eyes without moving even a single inch.
"Shit !" I slowly murmured.

"Good night, now sleep and let me sleep" sanam spoke & slowly laughed.
"Yeah good night " i said & closed my eyes...
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