Into My Heart

chapter- 8

"Hello aunty"Sanam said and sat on a chair exact opposite to me. "Hungry ?"mom asked."yeah absolutely"Sanam replied. "Anu ? Everything is okk na ?"Mom asked pulling me out of my thoughts.i nodded without looking at her. "What happened beta ?"mom asked again . "Okay , I'll serve the dinner in 5 mins"Mom said. "No mom i won't eat I'm not hungry at all, you guys enjoy"I said and got up to leave for my room. "But I cooked your favourite dish"Mom said a little louder as I left the dining and headed towards my room. I just went into the balcony and sat on the couch.
This is my secret space. My kind of heaven. Whenever I'm sad, depressed,feeling low i just come and sit here. This place is just my source of inner peace. I don't know what makes this place so special may be the sound of the waves, may be the calm and mild breeze or may be the sky full of stars.. I'm so much of a person who can just stare at the moon and might end up crying.

Few hours ago that evening was the best evening of my life. But, ugh this mood swings and strange feelings !

I'm stressed out and I'm depressed because I just realized the guy i love is no longer a normal person but a huge celebrity..who has thousands of girls who are ready to die for him. And may be he came across lots of gorgeous women , models and I'm a stupid untidy girl. Why should he even love me !
And now that's bothering me..
How do I get over these !

I can't handle after those moments that he will again go back leaving me here all alone ...

Suddenly tear drops started running down my cheeks. I covered my face being unable to control my feelings..
"I love you sanam, i love u so much, i don't even know how much, i can't afford going away from him, but he will leave me one day anyways what do I do "I started talking to myself being completely unable to hold my tears back anymore...

"Should I do something to keep him away from me, that will hurt less when he will leave"I thought.

"But what ?"i was thinking still crying.

"Ajeeb rangaan di tu hai badi
Lage alag hi jahaan di
Ajeeb rangaan di tu hai badi
Lage alag hi jahaan di

Ae to nazraan nazraan di gal ve
Tu vi sun le zaraa
Main taa kol tere rehna
Main taa kol tere rehna
Main taa rehna kol tere..."

I heard a male voice approaching signing.

I quickly wiped my tears and looked at him. Sanam .
He sat beside me on the couch and continued to sing
"Tainu takda ravaan
Baaton pe teri hansda ravaan
Pagal main khud nu banaanda ravaan
Tu hansdi rave, main hansanda ravaan
Tenu takda ravan"

Sanam looked at me singing. Sitting exact beside me leaving few inches gap between us. His gaze now fixed at me . His dark brown eyes trying to communicate with mine in a way that was captivating me towards him more and more .
"Oh sorry it should be tu roti rave main rulanda ravan phir bhi tainu takda ravan"Sanam said looking at me.

Eventually i smiled at him. "Ya that's better , i can't see u crying, u look like a chudail while crying u know"Sanam said. "I hate u"I said with a smile on my face still some tear drops in my eyes.
Sanam POV - i can't see you crying, your tears hurt me more than anything else, your beautiful heart, beautiful soul doesn't deserve tears always keep smiling like that

"What u looking at ?"I said. "Umm nothing"Sanam said.
"You look beautiful when u cry"Sanam said unconsciously. "Why were u crying ?"sanam asked."nothing, just some old memories that haunt me"I said avoiding eye contact with him.

"Am i a part of them ?"Sanam asked. "No, you are part of my best memories, even every moment spent with you is my best memory"i said.

"Really"said Sanam.i nodded . "Sanam, you remember, how we used to play the cinderella game back when we were 12, how I used to act as cinderella and u used to be my prince charming.You remember how I used to dream of a prince to come and sweep me off my feet.That haunt me now is my prince charming"I said. "so you think your prince charming forgot you because he didn't come to meet you"Sanam said.

"May be my prince charming found another princess other than cinderella"I said. Sanam turned to me quickly. "Prince charming loves his cinderella only, no one can replace her okay !. And ananya when cinderella ran far away from her prince she left a shoe behind. Prince charming wandered the whole world in search of his cinderella but finally found her near the sea beach"said Sanam. "But dreams never come true Sanam"i said. "They come true ananya, in the fairy tale it took prince less than a week but in reality the prince was a little lazy so it took him 7 years to find his cinderella, but see he made it"said Sanam.Prince charming never gave up ananya, he searched for 7 years and found his cinderella"said Sanam.

"What if the girl he found is not the princess, but a commoner"i said. "She is the best you know, but she looks really weird when she cries like a 5 year old girl"Sanam said looking at me. I smiled and looked at him.

He knows exactly what I want when I'm sad. I looked at sanam who was still looking at me.
"But there was no sea beach in the fairy tale"I said."I told u na reality is a bit different from fairy tales, my cinderella loves beaches"Sanam said looking at me. He slowly wiped some of my tears.

"So would u love to have a dance with me miss ?"Sanam said with a grin and stretched his right hand."Yeah sure my Highness"i said with a smile and kept my hand on his.
"And your name ?"asked Sanam."umm.. cinderella"I said and felt Sanam slowly held my fingers with his and his touch gave me goosebumps.
"But miss cinderella let me tell you I'm a bit different I'm going to steal your shoe so that when you go far away from me i can find you at ease"said Sanam."i thought you were a prince, but turned out to be a thief"i said hitting him slowly .Sanam quickly held my wrist with his left hand."Don't you dare call me a thief , you are more of it, you stole a very precious thing from me and kept it with you,not fair huh "Sanam said.

My heart beat increased as with every word our faces were coming more and more closer.

And now finally his face closest to mine, his breathes running all across my lips making chills run down my body. I clutched his T-shirt trying to make balance.

It was like magic, i can't control myself when he is so close to mine. Sanam removed some of my loose hairs from my face.He makes me loose control over myself.

I closed my eyes. Sanam cupped my face between his palms . Sanam slowly kissed my forehead. I tightly clutched his T-shirt and wanted to hug him as tightly as I can. I dont want him to let go.

I could barely breathe. My heart beat racing fastest.

He just slowly brought his face more close and a part of his lips touched mine.

Suddenly i heard mom coming saying"Anu, you okk na ? Where are you beta ? Sanam ?"

We came back to senses.Sanam slowly removed his lips and I removed my hand from his shoulder. Sanam and I sat apart as far as we could. I opened my eyes and started hesitating. We looked away being hesitated enough to face each other.

"What are you two doing sitting here ? Get inside it's getting cold"Mom said.

"Nothing aunty"Sanam spoke somehow. "Anu ?"Mom asked . "Yeah mom nothing.

I quickly stood up to leave. "Good.good night mom"I said and going into my room lied down on the bed with my head to toe covered under the blanket.

"What happened between you two again Sanam ? You are not kids anymore"ananya 's mom said.
"Yeah we are not kids anymore"Sanam said and looked at me.He headed to get changed with comfortable night suit.

After an hour....

I was still awake. Still my heart beating as if it was going to come out of my chest. I still couldn't get over the fact that sanam was about to kiss me ! I can't take it anymore. How am I going to face him tomorrow ! Suddenly i heard footsteps approaching my bed.

Sanam sat beside me on the bed. He settled the blanket properly to make me feel comfortable. He bent down to see if I'm properly asleep or not as he bent down i tried to pretend hard as if I'm asleep .Still his scent increased my heart beat. He turned off the lights and went back to his bed.

I gave a sigh of relief. And turned to the other side to see if sanam slept or not.
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Hey here's the next part finally..
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