Janiel seavery

Jacks POV

I haven't seen Zach in awhile. I went in his room knowing he's sleeping. I walked in and I shake him awake he says "I thought I told you guys not to talk to me?!" I just ignored him and got on top of hi  and kissed him. He quicklepy kissed back. He pulled at the bottom of my shirt and I took his and mine shirt off. I whispered " I love you and never forget that just know that I am here for you babe I love you"I say he kiss me one last chance and says " no you don't love me because you wouldn't have let me done what I have done to myself." I just look at him with disbelief and put my shirt on and sit on the edge of his bed. He comes up behind me and wraps his arms around my neck. He kissed my cheek and said that he was sorry. I pushed him off of me and said "HOW DARE YOU BLAME THIS ON ME! IM NOT THE ONE THAT TOLD YOU TO FUCKING CUT YOUR SELF AND STARVE YOUSELF! WE ALL TRIED TO FUCKING HELP YOU..!! BUT NO YOU DECIDED TO BLOCK EVERYONE THE FUCK OUT AND NOT TALK TO THEM FOR 4 MONTHS AND 6 WEEKS WITH OUT EATING ANYTHING BUT DRINKING WATER AND LEAVING WITH OUT FUCKING TELLING ANYONE! SO DONT FUCKING BLAME THIS ALL ON ME!" Zach looked really scared I got him trapped up against a wall and he was breathing really hard  I slapped him and walked off because I was so fucking pissed. I walk back in to his room and say "I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED YOU AND YOU DECIDED TO BLOCK ME THE ONE THAT ACTUALLY CARE FO YOU! AND THAN YOU BLAME ME FOR YOU DOING STUPID SHIT WE ALL TRIED TO STOP AND TALK TO YOU ABOUT IT BUT YOU IGNORED US AND LEFT" Zach just looks at me and he says "I'm sorry I didn't know that I was hurting any of you. I just wanted some time alone so can you plz stop yelling at me because you are scaring up the hell out of me!"

I started to fill really apparently because all I did was making him feel like he did something wrong when really did something wrong. I didn't stop him and try to stop him from hurting himself ... 

"I GET THAT BUT ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS SHOW YOU HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU BYE HAVING SEX WITH YOU BUT YOU DECIDED THAT IT WASMT GOOD ENOUGH! AND YOU DECIDED TO PRACTICALLY ALMOST FUCKING KILL YOUSELF!"

After that I just walked out.. and went downstairs and talked to the other 3boys and told them everything that happened and they all was pissed they stormed upstairs and cussed him out and yelled at him I just stood there and walked off because I tried so hard on this kid but he blamed me. So I give two fucks now....