Dean X Chubby Reader

Chapter 15

"So yeah congrats.

For the rest the rest of your life everything you say and do will have to be for my sister, give her the best life. But you lost her so congrats. So yeah I really hope your satisfied, but you can never be satisfied."

Danny finished and looked at me with tears coming out his eyes. I looked down to the ground ,shame radiating of me.

"So get out."

He said as he went to the back. I nodded got out of his store and into my impala. I start the engine and start to drive back to the bunker.

He was right. I should have never done that, I wanted her to be my wife. She was the one for me, and I'm not giving up on her.

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Reader's Point Of View:

I saved every memory from the saddest to the happiest. It was your smile that let me knew that you were mine. I foolishly thought every day we would be okay, well we're not okay.

Do you know what Rury told me the day you rang that doorbell?

His expression changed from being completely happy to complete seriousness.

"Just be careful he's known to hook up with someone and leave them the next day. "

I never thought anything of it. I thought that maybe you wouldn't do that to me. After all this you just increased my insecurities, I should have listened to Rury.

Every smile lit up my day. When I saw your eyes I thought maybe this ones mine, well your not mine! ....Not anymore at least. You and your words flooded my senses, filled me up with love. The more I saw you the more I fell apart.

I was always so vulnerable next to you, I was never afraid next to you. Now I know the truth and I hope everyone does to. Every time I saw you, you built me up and now your tearing me down.

Now I'm rethinking every memory with you. I'm rethinking every thought of you. Who knew that such an honest man could turn to be a cheat? I'm looking for ways when you could of gone more astray in the past. Looking at my past thoughts realizing how much I fell for you, and your traps.

I'm looking for comfort but the only one I had, has resided in you. You used to be mine, you said you were mine, I thought wrong then. Fell for that lie, millions of times, now I'm wondering 'why?'. Everything seemed so much brighter with you by my side. And now everything seems to hurt.

Me and Sam saw you when you were entering the bunker. We saw the way you kissed her and how you wanted so much more than just kissing.

Rury and Danny had warned me but I always thought you weren't that guy. Well now I realize you were that guy. The whole world told me how you bought everyone and everything into your bed.

I ignored that lie that seemed to spread, well it wasn't a lie.

I remember that Rury said ,"I thought maybe he might change and he hasn't."

You know he might kill you if you ever read this and Danny he liked you and he hates everyone. I've been so caught up with my job and now I see what's going on. I now know its just a better day like this.

You and those jobs leaving me helplessly. Your talking never lets me speak. Always having this pressure on you to save everyone but maybe you should have saved you. I'm done with you now, I'm glad I got to say it out loud.

You hate yourself for your past and how you believed you were never good enough. The lower you feel the more whiskey and beer. I don't know why I fed up with your non existent tears.

You worried more about the world itself than you were about you. This caused you so much damage to your health, and you have a toxic relationship with your brother.

Always so paranoid when your with each other . Always hiding in plain sight when everyone knows that both of you will never be alright.

I'm erasing myself from this narrative. Let every hunter know that I'm just a bone to Dean Winchester. Let every one know that I'm some fat girl who was some sort of toy. You broke my heart, you tore it all apart. It all it does is burn.

The world has no right to this knowledge I'm erasing every single day we were together. Forget the love story I'm better of lonely, without you.

The minute those lips touched yours, you lost my respect ,you lost my love ,you lost that special place in my heart.

Now your stuck with the memories of when you were mine. I hope that you know that we're now both alone. I hope that you erase yourself from my narrative.

I sighed and stoped typing on my computer. This was part of my book now and even if I resolved things with Dean I'm keeping it.

I hear a knock on my door and yell out come in.