Dean X Chubby Reader

Chapter 17

"So what will it be? Her safety or her demise?"

I felt a sudden pain on the back of my neck. Darkness soon over flowed me.

Oh bullocks it's happening again isn't it?

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I wake up tied to a chair, a demon trap on top of me.

I then head arguing. This is going to be funny.

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Reader's Point of View:

I looked at Dean with an eyebrow raised.

"Yeah, well I suppose you have questions, fire away."

I gave him my deathliest glare.

"Oh right, the tape!"

He said as he ripped the tape of my mouth. Dean, then proceeded to get the rope of me.

One question just rang through my head with tons of other emotions though. I take a deep breath before speaking.

"Why?"

I whispered out, my eyes turning a little glassy. I looked down on the floor a frown playing on my lips.

"Why, I did what I did?"

I nodded at his words, a tear was willing to spill out from my (y/e/c) eyes.

"I want to use the excuse that I was drunk, which I totally was. I didn't know what I was doing, if I did I'd never even look at that whore."

I looked at him my eyebrows forwarded together.

"She isn't a whore, she didn't know. But you Dean, you knew Dean. "

"I'm sorry for breaking your heart. It's just your loves to good to loose I'll never do that again. "

Anger was soon filling my stomach.

"Really Dean? I know I said this before but what if it had been me? What if I got a couple of rounds of whiskey and decided to ,I don't know suck someone of? You'd be broken to."

He looked at me. That face, this was the first time I'm actually seeing tears come out of him. The first time he's actually willing to be vulnerable in front of me or anyone for the matter.

I take a deep breath.

"Dean, I wanna know what's going on. Your hurting it's clear to see that but why are you keeping it from me. "

He shook his head.

"I know I won't understand. I don't understand why you choose to live this life but I'm here.... no matter what.

I don't pretend to know, the challenges your facing, I know there is no replacing what you've lost and you need time. I'm not afraid I know who I love, and I promise to be by your side, would I be enough?"

He blinked away the tears and cleared his voice.

"I know I don't deserve you and your more than enough but another time, all I need right now is you. I want you back, I don't care how hard it takes. I'll fight for you every single day. "

I know I'm probably gonna regret this but I love him.

"You know when you did what you did, it sent me down more stairs of insecurities and bad thoughts. It's like a split second and you disappeared.

I felt so alone.

I mean I felt like a total fool thinking I was such a tool to you. I always stayed loyal and I never once went astray.

I was so scared of love but then you broke down my walls. Then you made them even stronger by that.

This, all of this has taught me that we're both broken and shattered. I know now when your trying to pick someone's pieces that you may be cut in the process. "

I looked at him a tear slipping out of my eye. He looked at me shocked with his mouth wide open.

"I don't want to loose you again. If you try this one more time your definitely getting out of my life for good. "

He hugged me and kissed my fore head , then putting his chin on top of my head.

"I won't. Living without you has made me nothing but empty. "

I nodded at his words.

"I love you."

I said. Those are just words but I mean them deeply.

"I love you too."

We both stayed in a comfortable silence, just breathing in each others sent.

"I never liked the quite before."

I stared at him.

"Why?"

"Reminds me of my hunter life style. You?"

"It's quite up town. I like it there and I like it every where no matter as long as I'm with you."

We stayed quite after that. I take his hand.

"It's quite uptown. "

"Stop quoting Hamilton and musicals so much."

"Never!"