Bangtan Imagines

Jungkook

I wait nervously at the big building hall, gripping tightly on the lunch box strap.
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A smile appear on my lips, I can't wait what will he react to my surprise visit.
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He have been busy lately, skipping lunch, practice all night long, having sleepless night almost every day. He haven't been replying my messages and calls so I think its better if I give him a visit.
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Then, the door click open, all members walk out. My face lighten with excitement waiting for him to walk out.
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"Oh..? Yn!!" Hoseok lips curl into a wide smile, jumping at me, hugging me tightly. I chuckle as the rest of members start to greet me as well.
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In the corner of my eyes, I still wait for him when the door close, my brows furrowed. Where is he?
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"Yahh.. Long time no see. You you okay righteu?" Taehyung being silly, try to talk with me using English which he manage not so well but.. Nevermind.
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"Don't try to talk like that again, or you'll get an earful from Namjoon hyung." I said, he pout "But, I'm okay thou.."
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He smile widely, they walk to their practice room as I follow suit, where music is blasting from the inside.
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They push open the door, revealing Jeon Jungkook, with a girl dancing together.
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Namjoon turn off the music, "You two look awful.. Rest for a bit." he said as Jungkook turn, nodding as he tap the girl's shoulder, she smiled at him.
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"Good job, Yein ahh.. Let's take a quick break." he compliment her, she blushes although her cheeks are already red but still, its clearly she's blushing.
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I bite my inner cheeks, still standing behind Taehyung, I poke his back. He glance at me, I shove him the lunch box.
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He arch his brow at me, "Share with the members, I can't be here long.." he nod, opening his mouth to call Jungkook but I tug on his shirt.
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Shaking my head, he smile sadly at me. I form a small smile before sneaking out of the practice room.
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Hanging my head low, I run out of the building. Tears streaming down my eyes, again, I can't handle the truth.
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The real reason, why Jungkook didn't notice me is cause, he lost his memories.
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He mostly lost his memories about me, and the fact that he lost it because of me make it even worst.
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He involved in an accident which cause him a temporary memory lost, which hurt me to think about it again, when the first thing he said to me was, "Who are you?"
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I've been visiting him from time to time, still he only smile at me and walk off as if I was nothing but a acquaintance of his.
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Lately, he have been working with Yein, a girl who seems to caught his interest.
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I can't help but felt jealous, everytime they are together. His beautiful smile form on his face, which sadden me even more.
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He never once form that smile at me, maybe its karma for all the things I've done to him. Good or bad it doesn't matter, he can't even remember a single thing about me.
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I'm a pathetic, yes I know. I can't blame anyone, shit happen and here I am, facing one of my biggest fear, Jungkook.
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I sat on the bus stop, reaching for my phone in my pocket when I found none. I tap my other pocket, and mentally slap my forehead. I left it in with the lunch box.
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Running back to the building, I pant as I search frantically for Taehyung. I hope he didn't give it already to Jungkook, it will be a serious problem if he sees my wallpaper.
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I found Taehyung talking with Jimin, "Tae!!" I run up to him, he flinch a bit, "Woah, why are you running, its not good f--" I cut him off.
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"Where's the lunch box?"
"I already give it to Jungkook.."
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"Shit.." I mutter, Jimin widen his eyes, he closed my ears, "Don't curse.. The baby will hear it.." he smile cutely as I form a weak smile, I feel my stomach hurt a bit.
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Taehyung notice it and quickly, howling me up, putting me on a chair. He grab me a glass of water, "Drink up, you look awful.."
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Smiling weakly, I drank it all up. I take a few deep breaths before standing up and search for Jungkook.
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"Where are you going? Don't force yourself.." Jimin ask worriedly, I form a weak smile, "I have to get my phone back.."
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I walk off to the practice room, sneaking inside, I found him still focused on the routine. A small smile creep my face, shaking it off, I spot the lunch box.
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I approach it when suddenly the music stopped, panicking I grab my phone and hide inside some store at the pratice room.
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Jungkook smile at Yein, "Good job, enough for today.." she smile and peck his cheek. Jungkook eyes widen, as Yein also mirrored his reaction.
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I just watch from the small opening, feeling the pain on my stomach getting worst.
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Yein quickly run out, as Jungkook stand froze there. I, on the other hand, waiting for the right moment to sneak out when I feel my legs getting weak.
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Unable to tolerate with the pain any longer, I push the door open, startling Jungkook.
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"Yn, wh-- Oh!!" I helplessly fall, Jungkook is quick to catch me from falling hard. He look at me, "C-Call the ambulance.." I whisper out, gritting my teeth, holding the intense pain.
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Slowly, I feel lightheaded, and all I see is darkness after that.
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The beeping sound seems familiar to me, with the smell of antiseptic. Yup, I'm in the hospital.
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Fluttering my eyes open, the pain from my stomach is still there, a bit more hurt than before tho. I bit my lower lips, holding the pain when the nurse came in.
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"Mrs Jeon.. How are you feeling?" she ask, checking on my clipboard. I just nod, "Fine.. But, how's my baby?"
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"The doctor said, you're baby is doing great but seems like the mommy is not.." she said, I just softly chuckle, holding onto my stomach.
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Then, the doctor came in. "Mrs Jeon, I'm glad you're okay.. The contractions is on going I might say, from the last night you came.." I smile weakly, remember that today is my due date.
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The door once again, opened. Six boys barge in, looking all anxious. "YN!!" they said in unison, the doctor smile before excuse herself.
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"Is the baby going out today?" Hoseok ask, I just simply nod. "Is it a boy or a girl?" he ask again, Jin slap the back of his head, "Don't bomber Yn with question.. Didn't you hear what the doctor said?"
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Hoseok pout, Taehyung grab my hand gently. "You okay?" he ask, I nod weakly. The contractions came again, I groan, Taehyung tighten his grip.
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I smile to assure them I'm fine, but the pain is getting worst. That when, Jungkook walk in, looking at me with a blank expression.
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"Ughh.." I groan, tightening the grip more. Looking at my state, they all run out to search for the doctor. Taehyung pull Jungkook to replace him, "Stay with her.."
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"But, Hyung--" Jungkook couldn't finish, reluctantly obey. He sit on the chair, awkwardly hold my hand.
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"Stay strong, Yn.. Your baby is counting on you.." he smiled at me, somehow hurting me more. A tear slip my eyes, Jungkook wipe it, I form a painful smile.
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The doctor came just in time, they quickly bring me to the labor room. They all follow me till we reach in front of the room, I glance at them for the last time, especially my baby's father, Jungkook.
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The process went well, the baby is born healthy, his cries fill the room. I hold him in my arms, tears fall from my eyes. He look very alike with Jungkook, which pain me a lot. The fact that Jungkook haven't remember a single thing about me, then there's no chance of him even remember about his son, Junhyo.
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Afterwards, I got transfer back to my room. Junhyo arrive a few minutes after, in a small place. The members start to barge into my room.
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"Congrats, Yn!! Your baby look very like Jung-- Ugh.." Namjoon nudge Jimin, signaling over Jungkook, who seems to heard it.
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"Did you call me hyung?" Jungkook ask, "Ah..? No~ I was talking about Yn's husband.." Jimin awkwardly.
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"Ohh.. Where's her husband anyway?" he ask, making the room fell silent. Taehyung look at me, I form a sad smile, shaking my head.
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I know they care for me, especially Taehyung, "My husband is working oversea, Jungkook. He might be here once he take care of his work.." I explain to him.
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They stay for a while, before half of them went back to the studio, leaving the maknae and Taehyung behind.
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"Jungkook, buy me lunch.. I'm hungry~" Taehyung whine like a little baby, Jungkook just roll his eyes and walk out, "Okay, just stop whining.."
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As soon as Jungkook went out, Taehyung look at me, more like staring. I form a small smile, "I know, Tae.. Give him a chance, he'll regain his memory gradually.."
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Taehyung chuckle, "Chance? Are you crazy? He freaking lost his memory when Junhyo barely six weeks in you.. Now, he is already born. When will you tell Jungkook the truth? You want Junhyo grow up fatherless? That's what you want?"
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I shake my head, "Its unfair to force him.. Cause he lost his memories because of me."
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Taehyung sigh, "I got really bored with that excuse, Yn.. He isn't even trying to remember!! And you being an emotional freak isn't helping at all!!"
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He yelled at me, I look at him with tears streaming down. "Hyung.. Its only  gonna hurt us both, I can't afford that happen with Junhyo state now.."
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Taehyung gently wipe my tears, "Pabo.. Do you love Jungkook that much? That you willing to suffer like this..?" I form a small smile. He ruffle my hair, placing a kiss on my forehead.
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"I can't force you, but I hope the choice you make is good. Nevertheless, I'll always be by your side, don't hide anything from me.." Taehyung said, I nod. Besides, he's my big brother.
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"It's the best way.."
"Is that your best way, Yn?"