Do or Die

It's a rough world we live in that's no word of a lie

And sometimes all we are left with is whether to do or to die

And some people choose do and they follow that path

And sometimes it works but it sometimes turns dark

And they fight they're way right through the depths of hell

And maybe walk out into a prison cell

And those who choose die well they don't have it much better

All they turn into is a bright yellow letter

And most of these people they don't know why they fight

They can't even tell the difference between darkness and light

They step out and jump into a land unknown

And if they survive and make it back home

Then there's the question: was it them that came back?

Or did they lose something of themselves out there under attack?

And they live out the rest of their lives all alone

Because the mind is an empty place with no phone

The tears are common and so is the fear

And they slowly fade year after year

It's just like a disease this PTSD

Turns the weak into dust and the strong into weak

It dismantles the brain and spits it out broken

And leaves friends, families all people floating

Across the deep seas to find a solution

But never will they achieve what they are looking

The pain runs deep and so does the hate

As the memories haunt every minute it doesn't matter the date

They know what they did and what happened to others

And they cry in their sleep deep under the covers

But sheets provide no protection not against this

Not against pure rage, now let's shift

It all up a gear and see what comes after

See what accompanies this miracle disaster

Depression: that's a word which we all know

A word that's common and constantly flows

Out of all of our mouths without comprehending the meaning

And we see teenagers but disregard the beating

But depression's not a joke nor is it funny

But it's easy to ignore when it's hidden in a buggy

But let's put it in perspective see what's the truth

See what really lies under the hood

Imagine every day waking up and thinking about you

Hating every single thing from the head to the shoes

Dreading seeing people dreading those talks

Knowing people judge you for the way you walk

You know there are haters and a massive lack of sympathy

And you know people fake it and that there's no empathy

You know you will die someday, somehow

And you hope it is soon, hey, why not now?

You consider your death whether anyone will miss you

And you finally conclude that none of it is true

That when people say they like spending their time

In your humble presence you know it's all lies

You see this one girl, damn is she beautiful

And you want to talk to her, but you know that won't do at all

See you can't talk to girls, and every time you try

You just mess it up and try to not to cry

Because accompanying your depression is a lack of social skills

Because the less time you spend with people the more it feels like a drill

In your head, as a sentence tries to form

And you look in her eyes and you feel like you're worn

Her eyes are amazing truthful and deep

And it doesn't matter what colour because they're all so neat

You see brown is cute, and powerful and strong

And with sparkling blue eyes, you can never go wrong

And green is amazing, and beautiful and rare

A girl with greens eyes will always hold your stare

Which is hard when eye contact is your biggest weakness

And as you stare back at her all you feel is bleakness

Because you know that she can never be yours

Why would she want you when you're full of such bores

And as you look at this girl you adore

You feel the pain right down to your core

So you walk away and try not to look back

But those beautiful eyes have you under attack

And you turn around to see her walk away too

But she doesn't look back, no, she's not as weak as you

But I've gone slightly off topic, see what I'm trying to say

Is that you should look around you every minute, hour, and day

You should see more than what people show you outside

You should look deeper to see what they hide

Because chances are many are hurting

And all they need is for you to pull back the curtain

In fact, don't pull it back rip it in two

Let the earth shake, show them what to do

And fall on your knees look up to the sky

See the clouds part and feel the eyes

Of someone far greater than any great thought

Stare down at you and tell you you brought

Joy to his heart to hear you say

That you love Him in every way

And when you were crying because that girl said "no"

He was crying too and He wanted to go

And tell her just how amazing you are

And how you are so great that you'd give her your heart

But He knows that she is not the girl for you

Because He's created the right one, and that part is true

So next time you're down or crying with fear

Know that King Jesus is shedding a tear

And He's at your side though you may not know

Jesus is there, and He won't let you go