Kim Taehyung
Fluff
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His eyes met mine, dark and lively, standing out probably because of his dirty blonde hair, that were messily falling to every direction.
His look was serious. His naturally dark lips carved into a single slightly curved line, and his eyes decorated by a dark frame.
He tried so hard not to look drained, and it was hurtful to my eyes watching him struggle for something that much.
I didn't blame him though, he hadn't slept for days.
We hadn't slept for days.
And it was all my fault. It's been a while ever since those nightmares came to give me a sleepless night full of sweat and tears once again. And no matter how many times I asked him to let me find another dorm to live, Taehyung insisted that he wouldn't leave my side.
Every night we had to get though this together. He pulled himself with me into the same thing but he didn't deserve it. Our rooms were close and the walls were thin. He could hear everything.
I decided to play his little game and pretend that he actually succeeded on his marathon of staying strong, and pretend I didn't notice how life was slowly abandoning him.
He was like a puppet. Shiny, empty marbles for eyes and ropes keeping him up.
"Let's sleep. Sleep well."
He mumbled with a voice that was getting more and more heavier and sicker everytime like every night. Different day, same words. He still tried to seem cheerful like nothing was going to happen this night. Like every night.
I observed him walking into his room, getting below the seats with mechanical moves, when he glanced up at me, who was still staying still on his door.
Say something, you're making this awkward!
"I- I'm going to the bathroom, g-goodnight."
My voice cracked, but many reasons could cause this other than the waves of nervousness I felt on my head, and the sweat forming on my temples.
I ran out of the room, and didn't breath out until I finally closed the bathroom door behind me. Step one was already done, step two was on the go.
It was sure for me that I was going to stay sleepless once again today. But I couldn't allow Taehyung to do so too. It made me feel so guilty about that, even if I knew he did it only because he cared about me.
My hands searched through the cabinets above the sink, until I successfully brought out a pack of pills that I just bought today.
Some people take pills to sleep, but I would in order to stay awake. On that way I wouldn't wake up loudly, and Taehyung wouldn't wake up with me. He would finally sleep.
I smiled at myself as opened the lid to accidentally throw more than one pill on my palm. I had to admit, the view of it looked mesmerizing.
If I take all of them would I be awake for too long huh? Or would I just sleep forever in peace?
I put the rest in the tube, keeping only one out hidden on my palm, and opened the cabinet to hide well the tube so Taehyung wouldn't find it.
If he did find it, I had no clue how would he react but he would definitely be mad. But I can't do otherwise, I have to help him too. He has done so many things for me those 2 years we are rooming.
