I was sleeping until I heard my phone go off .
I saw the contact name. 'bambam'.
I was so tired I couldn't move.
I grabbed my phone and answered it.
"Hey" I said sluggish , my voice was so over it.
"Get up big head , the carnival Is today" bambam said with a bright voice, since he was a preformer he was so used to getting up early.
Bambam had been my best friend for 3 years now.
"I'm up" I said sounding like a mess. I tried to sit myself up and fix my hair.
I put my phone to my face fully.
"I don't wanna go ok? I'm not in the head space" I say sounding like a sad puppy.
"You can't mope around in bed all day over an asshole guy, he's not important" bam says, he is always one guy in my life that loves and protects me no matter what.
I nod my head to signal he was right. I did have to move on.
"So I'll pick you up at 7?" He said hoping for my answering to be yes.
I nod my head again.
"Ok" he said
"Ok" I said .
My 'ok' sounded like I wanted to die, and at that moment I did.
I don't want to go anywhere , or talk to anyone , I was to heartbroken to even speak, but for bam anything. Bambam has been for me on my toughest days, when I'm at my lows and highs.
Bambam even knows when the 'girl' is here,he brings me my favourite Ice cream and chocolate to help with my cravings.
Bottom line is he's basically my right arm and I don't go no where with out him.
I got up from my bed realizing what the time was 4:00pm.
I slept till 4 pm in the afternoon, please don't judge , as I said before I'm to heartbroken to even leave this room.
I ran in the shower and brushed my teeth.
As I got out the shower I could hear my phone from the living room of my apartment.
It's was my ex Nick, I wasn't gonna answer but I figured he just wanted his stuff.
I answered to here a raspy voice "hey babe" he said and I could hear his evil smile through the phone.
" Babe?" I asked almost losing it, "where not together anymore you broke you with me for one of my friends we'll now ex friends".
I day almost wanting to destroy my phone cause he was on it.
"Yeah but baby girl your the one I want to be with, she don't mean anything to me, I love you" he said , he knew he can always get me with I love You's.
I was almost there but I heard bambam in the back of my head and decided " no we're done" with that I hung up the phone.
Saying that made me feel free and alive.
I was now smiling a little bit.
4 hours later...
I was walking through the carnival with bam and he was smiling and trying to make me have a good time but, I just kept thinking about Nick.
"Ok I'm trying here" Bambam said looking deep in my eyes , his eyes were just beautiful.
'Did I just say that?' I thought to myself.
"I'm sorry I just , I know your trying just be patient with me ok?" I said trying to reassure that I care.
He nodded "come let me win you the big pink tiger. Member you told me when you were a kid you wanted a big one for your room" he said smiling.
I smiled to myself thinking of that memory.
" Bambam I was 12 , I wanted everything" I said smiling to him and he laughed.
"Well I want to get it for cmon" he said while grabbing my hand , I don't know what is was but his touch made me feel nervous yet safe.
We got up to the booth and he gave the man a 5 dollar bill, the man gave the 4 balls to throw it at bottles.
I didn't expect him to be so manly, he threw the ball very heavy knocking down 6 bottled at once. "Wow" I said to myself and he smiled.
The bell went off signaling that he won the grand prize which was the pink tiger.
The man grabbed the tiger and handed it to bam who handed it to me.
I smiled "thanks" I said and he held my hand.
"No problem" he then saw a Ferris wheel and pointed to it smiling knowing that I understood.
We loved ferris wheel's , it's just a great time to relax and talk.
I smiled back and nodded.
He grabbed my hand and we both ran to get on.
We got on and it was quiet for a second "what's really going?" bambam asked as he turned to me with a face of concern.
"Nothing I just... I don't" I said stumbling over my words.
" I know you , your never really this quiet around me" he said .
I looked up at him " nick called me saying he wants to get back together" I say , looking back down ,
I can feel bam's angry appear.
" What ? What did you say?" He asked nervous.
" I said no, but I wish I didn't" I said but I don't realize I said it out loud.
Now I could definitely feel him fuming.
" Your so stupid" he told me and I finally look up because I can't believe my best friend was telling me this.
I laughed to myself " ok I got to get off of this" I said angry.
"What's the big deal if we did get back together huh?" I said yelling.
" He treats you like shit, your amazing, why would you settle for less then amazing" when he said that it mad me tear.
I lowered my voice " I was alone".
"You had me , you always had me" he said trying to get my attention but I just looked down.
He picked my head up and wipe my tear from my eye.
" I'm here , I won't let anyone hurt you." He said and I looked in his eyes and in the moment I fell for his brown eyes.
His face for closer and closer and his lips just on planted on mine and I felt my whole stomach go upside down like do many butterflies.
That day I knew who I wanted and who I'd never go back to.
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