Symphony | damon ✔

symphony

Simon

i've been hearing symphonies
before all I heard was silence

Before I had met David when I hired him to be on the Britain's Got Talent panel, I hadn't been truly in love. It took David to make me realize that I wasn't in love with my girlfriend and how much of a gold digger my son, Eric's, mother had been. She had only wanted me for my money.

a rhapsody for you and me
and every melody is timeless

Every love song that was sung on BGT made me want to slow dance with David in my arms and that never happened because I never let him drag me out of my chair to dance.

life was stringing me along
then you came and you cut me loose

God, I wanted to have David in my life more than just on BGT. I wanted to have him be my boyfriend more than anyone in the world.

was solo singing on my own
now I can't find the key without you

I wanted to be intimate with David and I always pushed away his affection, claiming I was straight to him. That wasn't true at all. I was a closeted bisexual who was crushing on David Walliams.

and now your song is on repeat
and I'm dancin' on to your heartbeat

I wanted to act on my feelings for David, assuming that he was crushing on me because of how obvious it was. I was going to act on my feelings during the after party for the BGT season twelve finale.

and when you're gone, I feel incomplete
so if you want the truth

I didn't want to end this BGT season without telling David my romantic feelings for him. I could cover anything up tonight by claiming I was drunk when I told him it and then tell him I was actually sober when I told him my feelings for him. I just wanted to have David and this seemed like the only logical way to me that it would happen.

i just wanna be part of your symphony
will you hold me tight and not let go?

I wanted David to hold me tightly if he said he had a crush on me. I had wanted this for years, knowing very well how wrong it was but it felt right in my heart to know that I had a crush on David Walliams.

symphony
like a love song on the radio

Every love song that I heard being played on the radio reminded me of David and made me feel guilty for not telling him my feelings for him.

will you hold me tight and not let go?

It was definate that I was falling in love with David, although there was a small part of me that kept saying to myself that I was straight as I drove to the finale. I knew that this part of me wasn't correct because of how right it felt when I thought of David romantically.

i'm sorry if it's all too much
every day you're here, I'm healing

Whenever I saw David, my heart always skipped a beat, proving that I was most definitely in love with the younger man. I couldn't stand to be away from him and he couldn't be away from me.

and I was runnin' out of luck
i never thought I'd find this feeling

I didn't think I would truly ever fall in love. The only other person I had genuinely fallen in love with had been my son, Eric, as soon as he was placed in my arms for the first time by his mother, Lauren.

'cause I've been hearing symphonies
before all I heard was silence

When I had held Eric in my arms for the first time when he had been born, I felt the same emotions I had when I had met David Walliams for the first time. It was pure love.

a rhapsody for you and me
and every melody is timeless

It made me feel so happy knowing that I was in love and I was going to tell David my feelings for him during the after party for BGT as I drove to the studio. I wanted the live show to hurry by quickly so I could tell David my feelings but there was no way I could speed up time to make that moment happen.

and now your song is on repeat
and I'm dancin' on to your heartbeat

I tried to pay attention to the acts in the final but I found myself looking at David during commercial breaks and one time he caught my gaze and then arched an eyebrow, making me blush. He had correctly assumed what I had been thinking about doing to him. I had been thinking that after I told him my feelings for him and if he had the same feelings for me, we would snog.

and when you're gone, I feel incomplete
so if you want the truth

I couldn't pass up the opportunity to get David by himself and ask him what he felt about me. I wanted him so badly that if I started to think about him, I felt my trousers start to grow tighter and I would have to force my mind onto a different topic, like concentrating on the acts when they preformed.

i just wanna be part of your symphony
will you hold me tight and not let go?

David came and danced on me during an act's performance of some sexy song. He was giving me a lap dance, unaware that I was already gaining an erection just by thinking about him.

symphony
like a love song on the radio

I blushed a bright red and laughed as David did the lap dance on me, putting himself in my lap when the act was done. I adjusted my position so that he wouldn't feel my erection although it was only small for now.

will you hold me tight and not let go?

He put his arms around me and pressed his face to mine, calling me his Simon to the act because she had been making eye contact with me throughout the song.

and now your song is on repeat
and I'm dancin' on to your heartbeat

He got back up and sat down in his own seat, leaving me bright red from what he had been doing to me. If David said yes to being my boyfriend if he had romantic feelings for me, I would be getting that more often from what I guessed.

and when you're gone, I feel incomplete
so if you want the truth

The rest of the finale passed by slowly in my mind. I just had so much anticipation for the after party when I would pull David aside and tell him my feelings for him and hopefully get the same response.

i just wanna be part of your symphony
will you hold me tight and not let go?

Amanda pulled me onto the dance floor although her husband was at the party. She was already drunk and so was Alesha who was also trying to get me to dance even though her boyfriend was there.

symphony
like a love song on the radio

I managed to get away from the drunk female judges as they danced with each other and then I spotted David on the other side of the dance floor, across the room.

symphony
will you hold me tight and not let go?

David was standing alone with a drink in his hand so I knew it was my time. I had to tell him that I had a crush on him and he would tell me if he had a crush on me or not.

symphony
like a love song on the radio
will you hold me tight and not let go?

<> hello you guys! I've published this finally and I've been dying to publish it. I can't wait for Halloween tomorrow because I also have no school because of high winds knocking out the power.

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