Wouldn't Want To Have It Any Other Way (IM5 fanfiction)

Chap 8: This Is Where You Lose

        PASIA'S POV

This is it. We lost a battle we had no idea we were in. Our debt: Marcy. I can't believe I lost her. Of all people! Her! The girls are my life and losing one of them is like losing myself. Ash is OK but can tell that I am NOT OK with any of this. It's been three days. We have been continuing the tour and all that but I never sleep anymore. Cole is always in my bunk. I don't even want to live anymore and it's scaring everyone. I stopped eating, I stopped hydrating. I'm considering cutting (which could only cause more cancer). Oh yeah, I lied to everyone (including Cole). I learned that I have cancer in my right thigh and hip. I can dance soon but I am going to be at the hospital a lot.

"PASIA! Please come eat!" Jill says trying to get me out. I have been in my bunk for 5 hours. We had to cancel Olive for another month. We are heading to Dallas for a week.

"PASIA!" Ash says rolling herself into my bunk. "You still have her phone tracked on yours right?" I gasp and nod. I open my Find My iPhone app. I click on "MARCY WARCY" and find her on the map. A shack in New York? Really, Kevin? That's the best you can do. You kidnap her and then put her in a shack.

"Pack your bags, Ash," I say and she nods leaving my bunk, "We're going to the great NY!" I say and she helps me get my stuff situated. The boys are all asleep because they were at a party last night, well, Dana's awake because he didn't go to the party.

"Where are you going?" he asks.

"New York. Marcy's there..." I say but get interrupted.

"What if its a trap?!" Cole said cautiously. I had no idea he was awake.

"Shit, Cole," I say and turn to him. I have a week left in this wheelchair, "You scared me."

"But what if it is a trap?" he asks.

"I don't care. Better me than her," I say. It's already happened to me. I can have it happen again, but I'm not letting Marcy get hurt. We might have been in a feud, but I care about her.

"WHAT DID I SAY?" he asks me almost crying, "I SAID I CAN'T LOSE YOU AGAIN!"

"But what did I say?" I ask him. "I said I was a grenade and someday everything is going to blow up around me. You aren't going to be something that disappears. I care about you and the only way for me to protect you is to keep away from you. I am going to disappear and if trading Marcy for me is going to keep her safe, that is exactly what I'm doing." Ash looks at me with sorrow. She knows what's going on. Kevin kidnapped me and got paid for giving me clients. Marcy is not going through that.

"Pasia, no," Ash says.

"Ash, I'm going and this is final!" I say and she nods a sad nod.

I call Kevin and he answers with an evil tone.

"Well, if it isn't miss princess, how are you?" he asks.

"Give Marcy back." I state plain as that.

"All deeds need a payment, what do I get in return?" he asks.

"Me,"

"Perfect. I'll meet you on Navy Pier in Chicago. Be there alone." With that, he hung up. But then he called back.

"Meet in two weeks. I won't do anything to her until then."

"Deal." I say and hang up. The others are all up now and they look at me with sorrow.

"Are you sure?" Dana asks me.

"Dana, this is for you and her. You love her and she loves you. This is to protect her and keep her with you. I only do things for the people I care about most." I say and they nod. They won't make a joke out of this, "Now, help me out of this stupid chair." 

"Are you serious?" Will asks. 

"Dead," I answer and push my hands up and then my legs. Cole and Gabe rush to help. I get out of the wheelchair and start walking. An hour later, I am limping around the bus. Then I realize something. There has been a constant ticking noise since I called Kevin. I follow the sound until I get to the internet box. It has a small box on it. Kevin has unleashed all Hell. 

"Shit," I say, "NICKY! STOP THE BUS! EVERYONE OFF! THERE IS A BOMB ON THE BUS!" I say and I grab my phone and bust a window with my wheelchair. Nicky, the bus driver, slowly stops the bus and we all take turns getting off the bus. Nicky and I are the last ones off. I throw Will my wheelchair and throw Nicky down. Just as the sound quickens, I jump. The bus explodes behind us. We keep running until Cole throws me to the ground and covers me with his arms. Thank God Marcy and Alex aren't with us. I find Ash's hand and squeeze it. We stay like this until Nicky and Jill give the all clear. I cry and Cole holds me. We are in the middle of nowhere and I don't know how fast word spreads on the highway. I think of all the people who were in the cars next to us. RIP to all of those people. 

"I can't believe that all of this is happening!" I scream into the night! Ash comes from behind me and hugs me. I turn around and hug her. The others join the hug and I cry into Dana's shoulder. I then get a grip of myself and call Kevin.

"Hey, hows the bus?" he asks. 

"YOU IDIOT!" I scream at him. 

"Oh, you know that once you called me the timer started." He says. 

"You know what?" I ask him, "Meet me in a week on Miami Beach. I'll be alone." I hang up. I can't take watching all them be in pain. It's worth the risk of dying. 

"Pasia, can we talk?" Will asks me. I nod and walk over to a uncrimpled tree. 

"What?" I ask on the mist if crying. 

"There's someone here who needs to know the truth about your relationship," he says and I nod. He was right. I need to tell Cole the truth about my feelings for him. I walk away and run to Cole hugging him. He hugs back whispering things like 'I love you' or  'I will wait'. I have to cut him off and look at him. 

I then kiss him. Ash looks to us and smiles. All I do is close my eyes and capture the moment. 

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Hi everyone. Um, so yeah. Do you think Marcy will actually get set free? Will Cole make Pasia stay? Find out in Jeni's chapter! (NEXT CHAPTER!) 

BAI BAI my beautiful peoples! David comes in two chapters! WOO! Yeah, bye. 

Bella (Pasia and Cole)