the girl i use to be

chapter 2

You didnt think my story was over just yet did you 8th grade,8th grade is an emoshinal rollar coaster that you don't dont to be on and I'm only like a month in sad and lonely happy and good at different points of the day lets start of with teachers my first techer i have is mrs.edwards but know she's called mrs.vernon  i tell her everything to me being sad at someone to me likeing a party then mr.flood i think flood sees things in me i dont see in myself then ellis oh my fucking god dont get me started on ellis sometimes ill like him and sometimes i hate him and i mean really hate him maybe its because he belives in me a teacher never did maybe its because even after i told him i never asked him to care he sfill does and maybe I'm scared of people caring maybe I'm scared all of it someone that can see things in me someone willing to take another student out for me someone who still accepts me even when I'm a completed dick to him maybe its because no teacher really cared about a low life like me i mean who would and i just feel like sometimes i want him in my circle and sometimes i don't because like i said I'm an emoshinal roller coaster then stolberg next i showed him my dick side one day and know i think he hates me i mean who doesn't and there's my friends who I'm pretty sure aren't really my friends are either using me like drama or don't even notice I'm there like i feel like i could die and no one would care