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4 days

There was 4 Day left before we have to go. We are shipping off to Kandahar,Afghanistan. We will be 8,000 miles a part. The kids were sucking up and what as much attention as they could for the next four days. The hardest part is you know you have to leave them. Most of the time when you are getting on that plane they are crying and there is nothing you can do about it because you have to go. There is nothing you can do but walk the rest of the way on. It is not the point of being a soldier or being a mom it is just trying to mix them together because you are missing your kids growing up. That is why those 4 day or how many you have before you deploy mean just as much to the soldier as it dose the kid. On every soldier mine there is always a thought of what if this the last time I hug my babies or is this the last bedtime story I will every tell them. They are also the reason that we fight harder to make it back home. As we were sting on the bed with the kid we were watching a movie eating popcorn and we just lost trace of time. We normally eat dinner at 5:30 and by this point it was 9:30 so I order some take out. It would be here in 25 minutes. bang started to become shakey so I handed him a yogurt.
He is like" I will wait for the food to get here"
I am" like bang you have only ate a little bit of popcorn. "You need to take you insulin you have had it since lunch."
He is like "I will wait."
I am like " you are shakey because your sugar is dropping." The food got there and he took his insulin and ate which help to end a potentially waiting sugar drop. So we let the kids stay up late to night and watch another movie. Then it was shower or bath time what ever they picked so bang was bathing Avery and jisung is showering and I was sitting on the bed holding rid rid. Joon was asleep in his crib. So after everyone was done.
Avery and jisung come back in the room and are like " can we please sleep in here to night."
Me and bang are like " yes go grab you pillow,blankets and Avery grab you noonu." So they ran off to get there things I gave bang his sugar shot. I was laying there and rid rid fell asleep on my chest so I was just going to let he sleep there. So the kids get back and lay down and quickly fall asleep. We are now down to 3 days. So the next morning I made breakfast and bang and the kids came down to eat after everyone else have left because we were up the latest. After they were done I did the dishes. They we went onto do some shopping for some last need deployment thing and some things the kids need. Then we went to six flags and rode every ride in the place. The kids fell asleep in the car and had to be carried in. We went in and put jisung and Avery in there beds. Then we had to go take the baby out of there car seats and rid rid sleep on my chest after I put a sleeper on him. Bang put a sleeper on joon and he sleep on his chest. I was sleeping and my phone went off and I am like what possible could it be I look and it is the hospital. I answer and I am like "hello"
     The lady on the other end is like " is this autumn bang."
      I am like " yes it is."
  She is like " do you know a min yoongi."
    I am like " yes I do what happened is he OK."
    The nurse is like" no he was in a really bad car accident and is in the ICU."
      I am like " I will be there in 15 minutes and we hang up the phone and I walk over to suga and jimin room.
    I am like " jimin get up we have to go to the hospital."
    He gets up and is like " why what happened are you OK."
   I am like " I am fine but suga was in a car accident we need to go." so me and him got in the car you could see the fear in his face. He started to cry and we get there.
      The nurse is like " you are the lady I talk toon the phone"
       Then I said"yes" and then she gave us the room number and we went in.
    Jimin is like " are you sure that we have the right room."
      I am like " yea look at the chart and the hospital bracelet. He looked so messed up that it dose not even look like him any more.
      The doctor is like" he lost a lot of blood has a broken neck. He also broke most of his ribs which had left a lot of swelling so he will have to be ventilated in till the swelling goes down and is able to breath on this own." jimin was crying and looked at the doctor and the doctor went to leave.
      Jimin is like "when do you with he will wake up."
  The doctor is like " probley not in till tomorrow." The doctor leaves and I get a text from bang asking where  I am at. I text him that suga was in a car accident so it is at the hospital with jimin. That I would be home later and ily. So it was the next day so now we are down to two days and we have been at the hospital all night. Jimin was sleeping and suga starred to wake up. He woke up and is like " where and I what happened and where is jimin." he started to cry. So I walk over and put my hand on his. He wrote the words above because of the tube.
    I am like " you were in a car accident and jimin is over there on the chair sleeping." He just stop cry and fell a sleep." The doctor came in and is like you are a wake and your chest is less swelled so we can take the tube out. They did that and he gagged.
He grabbed my hand tighter and I am like " are you OK."
      He is like " I have never been in so much pain in my life." like 5 minutes after that jimin wakes up and looks over.
         Jimin is like " why did you not wake me up and he is like baby how are you feeling."
       Suga is like" I am fine don't worry baby." jimin just look at him. The doctor came in and is like he can go home today as long as he keeps the neck brace on. So we take him home and he goes to bed and seeps the rest of  the night. When we get done me and bang and the kids watch a movie then get them ready for bed. We all sleep in me and bangs bed. So now we deploy tomorrow so we spend all day with the kids we just stayed in bed all day an watch movies. So it was the night and we always ask the kids if they what to go to the tarmac and they are like"don't we always go."
I was " like but don't I always ask."
Avery and jisung are like " we will always see you off." so now it was the next morning we had are bags packed and uniforms on and we are heading to the tarmac. I hug and kiss my kids and go and give the deployment speech. Then I went to board the plane because I am always the ones on. I wave at the kids as I walk up the stairs in till they are out of sight.