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Becca Pov's
I wake up to a loud sound on my phone, I groan in pain as a heavy object pushing me on the floor making me yell in pain. I look to see Ethan sit up in shock as he looks at me on the floor. He jumps off the bed and comes over to me. He kinda slips on the floor, causing a dramatic episode to happen. I laugh at him being so extra as he rolls across the floor.
"Why are you laughing, I fell!" Ethan says gigging a bit. I roll my eyes at his stupidness and roll over towards the T.V, which was still on. It was Stranger Things. I scream in excitement, and jump up back to the couch. Ethan then looks at the T.V and then back at me raising as eyebrow
"What is this show?" He asks sitting down next to me. I look over at him and put my hand on my chest as if I was offended.
"Only the best show ever MADE!" I yell in his ear making him back away from me. I laugh once again but turn my attention back to the show. Mille Bobby Brown, is a goddess, like I don't even understand she is just so gorgeous. I hear a snapping in my ear and someone pushing me around.
"HELLO ARE YOU DEAD?!" Ethan yells in front of me. I push him over and continue watching the show. Ethan goes on his phone and scrolls through Instagram and likes a photo. I look over and see a girls photo. I raise an eyebrow and lean on his shoulder, I see the username before he quickly gets out of her profile, Meredith Micklson. I wonder who she is. I back away from Ethan's shoulder and go on Instagram, and look her up. Oh god, she is so pretty. Shit. I look at Ethan, who looks at me confused. I quickly look away and look down. he likes her. I hear a ding from his phone and he smiles, he opens the notification and starts typing. it was a dm, from her. I feel tears forming in my eyes.
"I have to go to the bathroom." I say rushing towards the bathroom. I get in and sit on the toilet sobbing. He will leave me for her, he will. I cover my mouth so no one can hear, but it was too late. Ethan was banging on the door, worried. He tried to open it but I locked it.
"Becca, open the door!" he yells trying to open it. I sob harder knowing he wouldn't want to be with me after this. he wouldn't want to be with me at all. I run over to the mirror which opens. I took out some pills and tried to open it. I finally got it open, pouring all the pills on the counter, dropping the top on the floor. I think Ethan heard because now he was trying to knock the door down. I sob as I pick up the pills and pour them in my mouth, I fall on the floor crying even more. Ethan breaks down the door, looking around his eyes indenting my eyes. He looks at the counter seeing some pills left over and the cap on the floor. His eyes start watering and he runs to me, sticking two fingers down my throat making me vomit on the floor and pretty much on him. I push him away from me and try to get up. I'm losing sight, and feeling weak. Ethan tries to grab me, but once again I push him away, making me fall on the floor. I open my eyes one last time to see Ethan sitting next to me on the phone, and holding me hand.
"YES FOR GOD SAKE HURRY...SHIT SHE IS DYING FOR CHRIST SAKE." He yells into the phone crying. what have I done. I hold his hand as hard as I can and I whisper:
"I-I lov-love you E-Ethan." Before I close my eyes and lose sight of living.
Ethan's POV
"I-I Lov-love you E-Ethan." Was Becca's last words before the paramedics came and her eyes closed. I stayed in the ambulance with her, they asked what I am to her, I said boyfriend. I cried as her body stayed still unless we hit a bump. Her heart was beating, but only very softly. I couldn't feel anything, I felt hopeless. I felt...horrible.
I sit in the waiting room and in the corner of my eye I see Grayson walk in with puffy red eyes. I glare at him as he sits down next to me. I watch him as he fiddles with his hands, and bounces his legs up and down, waiting and waiting. A doctor walks out and looks down at his clickboard.
"Becca Writes?" He said. Grayson and I looked at each other for a second then stood up looking at the doctor. He nods his head and walks over to us. He sighs as he looks at his clipboard. That makes Grayson fiddle with his hands even more.
"Becca..is in a coma, there is a 5% chance she will wake up." The doctor says looking at us. Grayson starts sobbing next to me, and I'm just sitting there in shock. What happened to make her do this. The doctor walks away talking to a nurse who just came out of a room. I go over and hug Grayson. He pretty much goes boneless on me and sobs on my shirt. I try and calm him down but I can't, he is too upset with himself. A nurse comes over talking to us.
"you can visit now." She said smiling. I nod my head trying to get Grayson off of me, I push him off after about five minutes later, and we head into Becca's room which was 324. I see her laying there lifeless. My heart ached at the sight. I couldn't believe I let this happen. Grayson's hand covered his mouth as he walked towards her, grabbing her hand. I heard a small gasp come from the door, and I see Katie. She runs to the other side of Becca and cries her little heart out.
I stand in the corner and keep quiet. I want to be here with her privately. Grayson and Katie were there for about an hour. Grayson gave me a hug and dragged Katie out, it seemed like he knew that I wanted alone time. I walk over to her lifeless body and hold her hand. For a small second I thought she held back, but she didn't. I sigh and close my eyes, and begin my speech.
"Becca, I will miss you so much, even if you are here right now, hearing me, seeing me, I can't see you and that's what hurts the most. Seeing you lifeless and still, so still you would think you aren't real it hurts me, because some of this makes me feel like its my fault and that I should take the blame for having you in this spot and sitting here makes me feel guilty." A tear rolls down my face and falls on my hand, it rolls off and lands on the floor.
"And your last words to me. I don't think you know how much that meant to me because well Becca, I love you too." Another tear slides down my face landing on her hand. I stand up and kiss her cheek. And I swear I felt a hand on my back, but I turned around and saw nothing. A sat back down and fell asleep to the sounds of Becca's heartbeat.
(Dream)
"Ethan." Becca said. I was sitting in the same chair I fell asleep in. I quickly look around and see Becca standing there. She was wearing a yellow sweater, leggings, her hair in a messy bun, and wearing a gray headband. She looked gorgeous. I was a bit shocked, and gasped when I saw another Becca laying in the hospital bed. Becca, the one wearing the outfit, walked up to me putting her hand on my shoulder; she felt so cold.
"Don't worry, I see her also, That's what you and Grayson see when you came to see me but, I walked around you guys, giving them a hug and touching your hand." She whispered, sounding a but quiet. A tear fell down my cheek, but was moved away right as it almost fell down onto my hand by Becca.
"Don't cry, I love you." She says coming in to hug me. And I pick her up. I kiss her cheek and spin her around making her laugh. I miss her because I know this is only a dream. I put her down kissing her cheek again.
"I have to go Ethan, I'll be back soon." She says going to walk away. I grab her hand and bring her into a hug one last time.
"I love you Becca, I will miss you." I say into her hair and I feel her smiling into my shirt.
"I love you too Ethan, Goodbye." And just like that she disappeared.
(End of dream)
I wake up abrupt and look at her laying in the bed. I rub my face with my hands and I feel another cold air on my shoulder. Maybe..just maybe the dream was real. I smile looking down, and fall back asleep to my baby's heartbeat.
A/N
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