What I'll Never Say Out Loud

Looks

I know it's wrong for me to think this way about you
But I don't know what to do
I don't know how to stop this
Stop these thoughts
And tell myself
It's a lost cause.
All you are is a human
Stuck on another side of a screen
A thousand miles away
But when I see your face
When I see your smile
My heart lights up
And my mind becomes weak
So weak I can't help but imagine
How you play with your hair
How soft and pure your gaze is
How colorful and beautiful your eyes are
How delicate and natural your lips are
It makes me want to
Gently stroke your hair
Look into your eyes
Infinitely and lovingly,
Fall in love with your genuine smile
Because it's one of the best things
About you,
Admire all your freckles
Uncovered and bare,
And hug you
When you're sad
When you're happy
Or when you're alone

I know you have more to offer
Than your body and looks
I can't even handle your personality
I can't even begin to describe it
Because it's too much for me
Your sensitive heart
Is much too precious
And priceless
To be held,
To even be known
Much less exposed
Or opened
To me.
I've accepted that
I'll never be worthy of having you
Since you're more
Than I'll ever see
More than I'm worthy of seeing
More than I'll ever know
And more than I'm worthy of knowing.