The Halstead Freckles - [Linstead] ✓

15. - I Never Needed You Like I Do Right Now

"So, how was school?" Erin asked as she put a plate full of soup in front of Oli.

"It was nice." he said and shrugged his shoulders. "Not much different than in New York. And it was really really nice because I already knew Alice." he smiled.

"Well, I'm glad to hear that. So, what did you do today?"

"We had math and I made a drawing for you! I'll show it to you in the morning."

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"Jay," Erin whispered, not sure if Oli was asleep, as they were all snuggled together in front of the tv. "Could you take him to bed tonight? I need to get something."

"Yeah, sure. What's up?" he furrowed his eyebrows and squeezed her knee "Everything alright?"

"Um. I..." she wasn't sure if she should say it already, but the look in his eyes convinced her. "I think I'm pregnant." she whispered.

Jay's eyes widened "What?"

"I'm not sure tho, I'm late, and I have this gut feeling but I don't know and I know the timing is kinda awful and-"

He grabbed her chin and kissed her "Erin, I think it's great." he smiled to her. "Come on, go get the tests, I'll get the Monkey to bed."

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Erin knew there was a drugstore just around the corner, so she walked there. The cold Chicago air stung her face as she walked along the street. For a second she wished Jay was here with her, but someone needed to take care of Oli. She almost wouldn't tell Jay, how would she explain such a thing to a four year old?

Plus, would Jay even want to come? Yes, she knew he loved her, and he was supportive but this probably wasn't what he wanted. Oli probably wasn't what he wanted in the first place.

And also, Oli was still getting used to Jay and this living-together-thing and Chicago and pretty much everything. He needed her attention and she can't give him that if a new baby comes along. Is she going to ruin their lives again? Why, why does she always ruin stuff for the people she loves?

When she got back into the apartment, she closed the door behind her and took her jacket off. She headed towards the bedroom when she saw Jay closing the door of Oli's room quietly.

"Hey," he nodded his head at her "You got the... stuff?"

"Gee, you sound like we're dealing drugs." Erin chuckled, but the smile quickly faded as she remembered what she really went to get.

"I'm just gonna..." she pointed to the bathroom door awkwardly.

"Yeah, sure. But hey Erin?"

"Hm?" she stopped her motions and turned around.

"Know that no matter what, I love you."

"I love you too." she offered a weak smile and entered the bathroom.

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She was reading the intructions on the back of the box for the sixth time. Damn, these were the longest three minutes of waiting in her life.

She didn't even know what she wanted the answer to be.

"Erin, you alright?" Jay's voice interupted her thoughts.

"Yeah." she checked the time. Three minutes have passed.

She got up from the floor, where she'd been sitting and made those few steps to the sink.

She took the stick and turned it around.

A tear slipped out of her green eyes and rolled down her cheek.

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i know this is short af but you'll get the next one really soon, i promise.

xoxo v

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