Useless thoughts of a frequent insomniac

Frienemies

Today I'm going to be talking about someone
He's my friend
But also my enemy
Confusing I know
I've known this guy my whole life
Yet we've never really taken the time to get to know each their
We're so close yet so distant
He puts bad things into my brain like
You look terrible
No one will accept you
I hate you
But sometimes he says good things like
Treat yourself
You look cute today
I love you
He's so emotionally vulnerable in the barricades of fake smiles he's built around himself
We use to be close but recent events made me question such
He's lost and afraid
He gives so much of his love away that he barely leaves any for himself
He has anxiety which makes him care too much
But he also has depression which makes him not care at all
What does he do
What does he do
What does he do
I don't know
The real question is
What do I do
What do I do with this mess called my mind