hood nigga

Its better this way.

Cris 😋: maybe we should end things Jose...
Me: if that's what you want then ok .
Cris 😋: no it's up to you .
Me: no it's really not
Cris 😋: well idk the way you act is just sum but I'll leave u alone text u later.
I left him on read and then him and Juan left to go do there thing
I was Snapchat and saw jims story they were doing lines of coke . Maybe it's better this way for the both of us . I means I'll save my heart from breaking , and we'll he'll do what he does best they were all right is useless at this point . And even though I knew I was saving myself from a broken heart my heart ached so much , he feed me his attention and even though he's a hood nigga he had a soft stop when it came to me . I just wanted to go home I didn't even want to go to soccer practice. then my phone went off it was a message from Cris witch was off because he usually text me through Snapchat.
Cristian: Jose if you get a call from an unknown number please answer it , I'm sorry baby girl i got caught up , i know you're mad lil ma . I love you .

I was in the middle of class and I started crying my heart dropped to my stomach once I read "an unknown number " I knew it meant a phone call from the police department. Meaning he was going to get locked up . I texted him back :
Me : what tf did you do !
Cristian : I'm in a g whip
Cristian: you're in class ?
Me : yeah
Cristian: oh never mind
Me :nah where are you I'll walk out who u with ?
Cristian: I'm heading to the apartments by you're house the white with blue ones .
I grabbed my stuff and walked out class heading to the apartment complex. I was by a small park they had . And I saw his friend nick he looked at me and said "ugh you , I'll leave u guys alone " and left he really didn't like me for some reason but it didn't matter . Then Cris came out the cuts , he looked at me and he looked down . He was trying to hide his worried face . I looked at him and all of a sudden all the anger I had towards him faded once his hazel eyes locked into my eyes and I cared and loved this guy together or not that's my baby right there . I snapped back to reality and I sat down on bench and he was standing and reached for my hand and was holding my hand as his fingers rubbed against my knuckles. "What. In the world were you thinking cris ." I said breaking the silence "you made me mad because you be texting other nig-" "so it my fucken fault ?! " I interrupted him . "You have to stop putting blame on people and grow up , you have a fucken family . That cares about you , I care ! and I'm tired you don't know how many times I break down in class because of you ! you know how many nights I go on my knees and pray for you that these streets don't fucken take you ! I'm over here doing the most and you seem to never care and if this couple of months we have been talking don't mean shit to you . Then tell me , tell me how it is , fuck my feelings I just want 1k ." I said as I removed my hand from his we stayed in silence for a couple seconds, he wasn't saying anything so I got up and I walked off . "Don't leave me .." he whispered pulling me by my hand into his arms . I hugged him as I listened to his heart beat . the most beautiful sound in the world it was racing fast because of the running he did but every time it beat made me more and more great full that god had him with me instead of a coffin or in the back of a cop car . he was a criminal I knew that he broke the laws , but people never saw the good in him , they never let him be him . And he'll never know all this the way I was grateful for him the way I cherished every beat of his heart . " i think they are going to kick me out of school " he said looking down on me kissing my forehead .