hood nigga

maybe one day.

I woke up with a text message from Cris
Cris 😋: hey baby I'm not going to school
Me : why?
Cris 😋: i don't want to deal with the bitch ass principle bitching about yesterday.
Me: cris does your mom know ?
Cris 😋: no she's dropping me off  but when she leaves im not going to school idk I'll see where I'll go
Me : ohh
Cris 😋: you going to school ?
Me : yeah why ?
Cris 😋: ohh I wanted to chill but okay .
Me : let meet up At the apartment ?
Cris 😋: okay text me when ur there baby girl .
I started getting ready my uncle had barely gotten home and I had to pretend I was heading to school so I took my backpack and walked out the door I crossed the streets into the apartment and I was heading to the little park . And I texted him
Me : I'm here where you at ?

Before I got a response I saw him siting at the bench starting at me he noticed that I was lookin at him too he stood up and stretched and hugged me putting his arms around my waste and kissing me "hey princess " he said between the kisses . "You need to go to school, I'm letting this one slide ." I smiled back at him  he got his phone and started texting people . Them my phone vibrated
Cris 😋: I'm right next to you
I smiled and I put my phone away "do I really make you smile over one text ?" He asked lifting up my chin , "I guess so " I responded. But in reality him in general made me happy . I would do anything for him . he pulled me into a kiss and my hair got in the way , "ugh hold up" I told him . And I bend over to put my hair up in a ponytail "na let me do it , let go" he said as he playfully slapped my hand to let go of my hair . "You got long hair" "okay let me see the hair band" he said reaching out for the hair tie . I turned around facing him and he did a pretty shitty job . "You did it wrong" I said "okay whatever shut up" he said as he grabbed my key chain . "Come here" he said as he pulled me into a kiss witch turned out to a make out . "Let's go to my boys pad" cris said as he slapped my ass . "Uh sure" I replied. He's friend Justin lived in the apartments and I guess they were really close friends that he had his key to his house . We went in "he's okay with us being here" I asked "yeah that's why I have his keys he won't be here till 5 we" okay then .We were in the couch I was on his lap making our with him for a couple minutes.

Is this what I want ?
Do I want to have sex with him and him leave?
Jose you already in love with him these past months that you have been with him .
he's going to leave . Don't let him break your heart.
Was running through my head while He put me down on the couch while he was on top of me still making out we made eye contact and he slammed his lips on mine again and between the kissed he smiled. this was the first time we were doing something that wasn't just make out or holding hands or hugging or kissing . I didn't know if I wanted this to happen . He un did my jeans pulled them down and started grinding his lower body on me then he started rubbing his fingers on my pussy I let a small moan . and I undid his belt we were like this for a couple minutes. Then his phone went off . "Are you kidding Me" he said as he picked up his phone . I got up and pulled my pants back up . And he did the same i don't know if I was bummed out we didn't fuck or i was glad we didn't . "Let's go back to the little park" he said and he grabbed mine and his backpack and put them both on . On our way back to the park a car pulls up "oh shit that my mom text you later" he said as he gave me back my backpack I got home and I put my things away and started thinking if we fucked would he leave ? or does he actually like me ? he's so good at making it seem he cares but if I give it to him he'll be good at leaving . He texted me for a while till he ended falling asleep on me I took a shower lit up a candle and started praying again. "Maybe one day I'll understand why you had to go , but for now I just want better days . I wanna be able to except the fact that I can't no longer see you "