This Isn't Real

The final chapter.

A few minutes later, we're in my apartment, watching a movie. This one is actually interesting. Some scary movie made a long time ago called Oculus. I really chose it because I figured, if Tris gets scared, that gives me a reason to hold her.

But of course I picked the toughest girl in Divergence to be my girlfriend. She jumped a few times, but was never really scared.

Afterwards, it's almost three. We're sitting together, leaned back with my arm around her. I shift, so that she's in my lap, her back against my chest, and wrap my arms around her.

"Tris?" She raises her head.

"You know it's pretty late. Why don't you stay here?"

She smiles. "Tobias I live 15 feet away. I think I can make it."

I kiss just under her ear. "I know you can, but I like you here." I squeeze her small body gently to prove my point.

She smiles and rolls her eyes, attempting to get up, but

I pull her closer to me and kiss her, pressing my mouth onto hers in the way I know she loves. I flick my tongue across her bottom lip, craving the access that only I get. No one else. She parts her lips slightly and moans as my tongue slides onto hers, sparking my arousal. I roll her under me and let my hands roam around her arms, her stomach, her legs. I wanted so badly to kiss every inch of her beautiful, sexy body.

She mumbles "Bedroom." against my mouth, and it took me a second to process it.

"Are you su-" Her lips are on mine before I could even finish the word.

"Yes." She breathed the word against my mouth, causing that all-too-familiar feeling of wanting her, needing her.

Only this time, she wants me back.

I lift her up, letting her legs drape around my waist as I make my way to my bedroom. I slide her onto the bed, slipping off my shirt before climbing on top of her. Her arms wrap around me, pulling as close to me as humanly possible, but it's not enough. How could it be?

I kiss her neck, her collarbone, trailing down her chest, as far as her shirt will allow. She pulls at my hair and moans barely loud enough for either of us to hear her, but its enough to turn me on... Even more so than I already was.

We're quickly approaching the line we've only crossed once before, and that was in a simulation. I can feel her shaking below me, but make no attempt to hide it.

Trying to send a sign maybe?

I pull back and look at her. "Tris. I want you. I will always want you. But we don't have to do this now. I will wait for you. I'd wait a million years for you. I love you."

She leaned up and kissed me. "Shut up and take me."

This girl knows how to turn me on...

I grab the hem of her shirt, looking at her to make sure she's really ok with this. After a quick nod from her, I pull her shirt off her body. Immediately, her eyes lose their confidence, and she looks at the wall, the ceiling, anywhere but me.

"Do you want to stop?"

She shakes her head no. I sigh. "Tris it's not a big deal. If you want to stop, tell me."

She bites her lip, looking as if she's deciding what to say.

Don't bite your lip while your laying on my bed with no shirt on. It's hard enough to keep some self control without that.

She releases her lip, and I can't decide if I'm happy about that or not.

"Keep going." I have to search her eyes to make sure she really means it, that's she's not just doing this for me.