-Stallison

Chapter 12 (not edited)

**Allisons pov**

It's been three weeks since me and stiles ended things. It couldn't work. And we couldn't keep sneaking around. We nearly got caught.
I've decided to try and make things work with Scott. I have to try. I hope I can still be happy with him and occasionally there will be a few seconds where everything seems normal. It seems like I'm happy being with Scott and it seems like I was never even with stiles. But then I see him out of the corner of my eye. All those feelings come rushing back. I'm still totally in love with stiles. And I honestly feel like it's never going to go away. I don't know what to do.

I'm lying in my bed thinking about him. Thinking about the way he looked at me. The way he touched me. The way I felt around him. Every muscle in my body urges to be with him. All I want to do is run over and kiss him passionately. I want to be able to be with him. Thinking about all the wonderful times we had together my eyes start to sting. I try to hold back the tears but every single night it doesn't work. I cry uncontrollably thinking about him. And how I can never be with him. I also cry because I feel guilty for cheating on Scott. I feel guilty for not loving him anymore. And I feel guilty for being the reason stiles broke up with Lydia. Lydia still loves stiles. I know because everytime we are together she tells me how she misses him. And how she doesn't understand why he would breakup with her so suddenly.
I eventually fall asleep once I'm done crying but I always dream about stiles. Every single night.

*
I wake up that morning with a weird feeling. I feel so sick all of a sudden but I don't know why. I was perfectly fine last night. Well aside from the crying I didn't feel sick. I run to the bathroom and throw up. This is the third time this has happened. For three days now I'll get up and feel so sick but then get better. I don't know what's happening.  I don't know I'll ask Lydia. We are meeting up to go shopping today. But I don't want to. Evrytime I see her the guilt comes rushing back. I have to get over this though. I can't love stiles forever. I know I can't.

**

Me and Lydia are trying clothes right now. We've been here for hours. She still talks about how she still loves stiles. She comes out the changing room wearing a beautiful red dress

'What do you think' she says twirling around

'It's amazing you should defiantly buy it'

'I'm going to wear it when I try to win stiles back'

When she says this my heart falls out of my chest. Win stiles back. I want her to be happy but not with stiles. To be honest I don't want any one with stiles. I know that's not fair but the thought of seeing him with someone else hurts me. But he should move on. I'm just being stupid. He's aloud to date anyone.

Me and Lydia  go back to her house and decide to have sleepover. This is good. It will keep my mind off of stiles and help me focus on better things. We stay up most of the night watching movies laughing and eating tons of food. And for that short amount of time stiles was pushed to the back of my mind and I didn't even think about him. Hat was until we fell asleep and of course I dreamt about him again. I dreamt about him running up to me and pulling me into a kiss. The dream was amazing until I woke up with that sick feeling again. I ran to the bathroom waking Lydia up along the way.

'Hey are you okay?' She asked concerned

'Yeah it happens every morning. I don't know why' I say cleaning myself up

Suddenly her face drops. 'Allison' she says quietly

'What' I asked nervously

'I think you might be pregnant. You have to buy a pregnancy test'

'No. there's no way Lydia I'm not pregnant. I'm defiantly not pregnant'

'Are you sure you and Scott where careful everytime?'

I nod my head sure that I'm not pregnant when suddenly I realised. Me and Scott where careful. But me and stiles weren't. And besides me and Scott haven't been together like that in over a month. I'm definitely not pregnant with Scott's baby. I'm getting way to ahead of myself. I'm not pregnant with anyone's baby. I know I'm not. I'm only 18. There's not way. I'm just sick.

'Allison just get the pregnancy test. You have to know there's no other reason for you to be sick like this every morning'

'Lydia I'm not pregnant. We where careful. Let's just go and watch some more tv'

She reluctantly nods her head and we go and sit on the couch. I Can't concentrate. I don't even know what we where watching. There no way Lydia was right. I'm not pregnant.

As I start to walk home I pass the store and go in to get some food. As I'm walking down the aisle I see a box of Pregnancy tests and thoughts stir in my mind. What if Lydia is right. Shouldn't I just find out. I mean it is a possibility. So I grab quit aloud of boxes. I want to do a lot of tests just to be sure.

I quickly run home. I run and drop into my bed staring at the tests. I don't want to even do them. Why if I am pregnant? What am I going to do? And I know it's not Scott's. What will I tell him? How will I tell stiles? Stop. I'm probably not. I'll just try them to clear my mind.

**
A few minutes later I sit there on my bed. Tears forming in my eyes as I stare down at the six pregnancy tests sitting infront of me. All positive. I am pregnant with stiles baby. I can't tell him. I can't tell Scott. I can't do this. But I can't get rid of it. I just cant do that. But I can't tell anyone. What will my dad think. I'm only 18 I can't have a baby. What will stiles think? Will he help me? How am I going to tell Scott that I'm having his best friends baby? Why did this have to happen? Why?