I keep on doing it in a.scratch paper
write erase write erase the cycle keeps on repeating
I finally wants to give up
wants to let go
My bin is almost full of crampled papers
My mind is full of speculations what number should it be
why I keep on looking for the x and the y's keep on coming
This was my life during my college days
I keep.on chasing for a man who loves numbers
I keep on changing myself to someone I'm not
I threw my make ups away
I turned my back to the friends I used to have
I joined competitions I usually doesn't give a damn
I even become a student assisstant just for me to reach his level.
But all those efforts are just thrown into a bin
I was crashes, crampled, and totally wasted
I saw him lying with someonelse with a smile in his face.
I saw him with a girl I used to share my feelings for him
I saw him holding other girl's hand while talking about their future plans.
All those things struck to my heart.
I cannot find the right proportion for myself
I'm lost of words to say.
I'm deaf
I'm paralyzed
And all those things just crashed down
All those dreams become a nightmare.
Now I already emptied the bin of my hear
finally solved the equation that he + me = will forever remain undefine.
Undeniably I wasn't able to express all these things but all I wish for you is.happiness ., happiness that I know that I won't.neve be part of .
