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Chapter 9

Few hours have passed, I've received a message from one of his team mates.

I unlocked my phone and read the message.

I can't believe on what just I saw.

I-I can't breathe properly.

It's tearing me apart.

I'm so broken.

"Hi,Aki. This is T/N. An accident occurred awhile ago when we were about to go to the court. We are here at the hospital."

"Some of our team mates have a severe impact of injury since the truck hit our van so hard." 

"Your boyfriend. He passed away. I'm sorry for your loss Aki. I'm sorry."

"But he left this letter on his bag."

I cried so hard when he messaged me.

My boyfriend passed away.

He is my everything.

He is my other half.

He is my soul.

He is my treasure that I must keep.

He is a precious person.

He is my love.

He captured a photo to the letter and sent it to me.

Letter:

Hi My Aki ! I miss you so damn much.You can't imagine how a minute feels like a day for me.

I miss you and I love you. How I wish I could cuddle you all day long. How I wish i could go out with a date with you.  I miss everything about you. I miss your fragrance. I really love you. I promise when after this, I'll spend a lot of time with you. i'll protect you at all costs. i'll treat you like you are the most precious angel i've ever seen. I'll treat you better and I'll give you my all. 

I'll shower all my love to you and won't hurt you. I promise that one day when I propose with you, I'll give you whatever you want. i'll help you all the times through ups and down, to hardships and gaiety and to contemplation and dilemma. I will be there for you.

I'll cherish you forever. You are the most beautiful girl for me.You are the one I really need. Thank you for understanding me and for being a wise girl. I miss you and I love you.

Tears started to form again as I read the message.

I want him back.

I want to cuddle him.

I miss everything about him.

I want to see him.

Just him.

If a miracle just could happen,I want him to be awake and him,be with me.

I want him SO BAD.

I don't need to ask for more.

I just need him in my entire life.

How could I live as one when my other half is gone?

I'm speechless and emotional.

I couldn't take the pain anymore.

I want to die so I can be with him.

It's not like I wanted to end my life,I just want to end this pain and be with him.

I love him.

I clenched the blanket  as an anger and pain rises me up.

I shouted and screamed when the pain starts to hit me.

This is where my insomnia started.