I've been thinking a lot.

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I've been thinking a lot.

I've been thinking a lot.

I don't know what's wrong with me.

I'm trying to be happy,

but without you there's no motivation in me.

I've been thinking a lot.

I don't know why I keep crying.

I'm trying to not shed a year for a day,

but without you there's no point in trying.

I've been thinking a lot.

I don't know why I keep purging.

I'm trying to eat,

but without you there's no point in not starving.

I've been thinking a lot.

I don't know why I keep thinking about you.

I'm trying to stop,

but without you all I can do is miss you.

I've been thinking a lot.

I don't know why I keep attempting to kill myself

I'm trying to stop harming myself,

but without you there's no point in living.

And maybe

these thoughts

and the way

I'm

living

will be the end of me

& my thoughts.

I've been thinking.

A lot.

-c.s.m.

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